Ftm girlfriend

This is my first post. Hopefully someone reads this and can help me with my daily struggles.

Background; Hi my boyfriend who is ftm and I have been together for a year we live together and work together. Ive never been with such an amazing person that him being trans doesnt effect my feelings for me who has always identified as a straight female. I love every part of his body. He had top surgery 5 years ago. And started testosterone 7 years ago. 

Why im on this site; As much as I love my boyfriend he doesnt love himself. He has bad body dysmorphia. He flinches when We lay around and I start to touch him anywhere near his thighs or lower stomach. I want to express how handsome and amazing he is but he just hates his body and how he doesn't look like a man downstairs. No matter how much I tell him I love his body and that doesn't bother me, its not enough and hes still sad

I also wish I could talk about his good and bad days with someone but because of our career he isnt open about his ftm transition. My family and friends dont know because he wants to be the one to say something and I know he wont but that's not my thing to tell so I respect him by not saying anything. Which is why im here and to find some people to talk to. Okay full circle and please message me