Frustrated/Overwhelmed
Havent been in here in a long time but this always the place where I can come and vent, write my feelings, express myself without the whole world knowing I'm falling apart.
Some days I hate life and choose to be sad, angry, hurt, scared, resentful, and lonely. Other days I feel blessed and choose to be happy, optimistic, thankful, forgiving, and compassionate.
Today is one of those days - frustrated with myself for so many reasons
- gained some weight and I can't seem to stick to a diet plan
- my boys are failing school and I feel overly frustrated and as a failure as a mother
-my oldest boy (he has 2 years left in HS) doesnt think about his future which once again makes me as a failure as a mother
-can't keep up with my house chores, house is a mess and I hate been in a dirty house - kids clean but their definition of clean is definitely not my definition of clean
-after getting divorced I lost my job and I got in deep financially - I've been working for the last 2 years which I'm grateful for and I'm keeping up with my bills but sometimes it feels like their is no light at the end of the tunnel.
-the guy I'm dating suffers from depression - he is a good man always sweet but when spirals into a depression state is hard on him but also hard on me
-my mom was diagnosed with cancer and even though she seems to be doing okay with chemo I havent been to able to visit her (financial hardship)
-miss my Island, my country with all my heart and I wish I could go back and visit but right now its financially impossible
I dont have a bad life it just somedays it seems impossible.
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So sorry you're having a bad day, it happens to most of us here. It seems like it's impossible to get a head no matter how hard we try. You've come a long way and have been hit with a bunch of life changing challenges, just keep your head up and forward and tackle things one day at a time if possible. What I've learned through all of this is that life keeps going and most challenges won't last forever. Sending you prayers and Hugs!
Thanks yougospam!!! Ups and downs and I am in the downs right now.
(((HUGS))) You already know this, but sometimes it helps to hear it.....you are a good mom, your childrens failures are not your failures....they are also learning and must learn the repercussions of their choices.
Thanks misred!!! Oh those words really lifted my day!!