Frustrated

I am so sick and tired of people only talking to me when it's convenient for them. 

I want to say not to talk to me just because something bad is happening but that would make me feel awful. I am there for everyone who needs me but no one is there for me when I need them. 

No one wants to talk to me when everything is going just fine for them but as soon as shit hits the fan, they're all in my phone trying to talk to me. I'm so sick of it.

And it's not like I can vent these feelings to them because they're going through a rough time and don't need me yelling at them making it worse.

I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING.

I just can't deal with these people on top of everything else going on. I constantly feel like I'm suffocating and drowning and like I can't escape a room. I'm trapped. 

I have so much built-up anger and frustration and I just need to let it out. Screaming and punching would be ideal but I know that's not an appropriate way to handle stress and all this. I should probably talk to a therapist or someone but a therapist is paid to listen to you and neither therapists or anyone else actually care. No one cares. That's just how it is.

Kay