frustrated....

Today is the 14th of November 2020.

I am so angry I know my  son can not help his PTSD or all the other disorders  he has,but when he goes into a tirade remembering  all the bad things  that has happen to him in school the bullying,the teachers lack of empathy,and all the bad things. I just get so angry  I feel like  he  throws a fit on purpose  to make me mad like a spoiled child. I know I know he can not control  this PTSD,but it makes me frustrated. I have to deal with it almost all the time twice in a row  today he had a tirade once yesterday. I just wish he could get over it,and be normal a normal teenager,but  I know untill I get him to see a surgion  that works with nerves  to exam him carefully  see what is going on  there is nothing I can do,but give him  his medications and deal with a tirade every day  or twice a day,or how  ever many times  he does break into a tirade. I am so tired of dealing with this  alone beign alone, and dealing with this it sucks dealing  with crap like this  by myself sick of dealing  with all the little  damn problems  that has  to pop up,and make life more miserable then it has to be.  Just want everything to run smoothly  from now  on and not  be so damn complicated.