Frustrated
tonight I'm overwhelmed with emotion. I want to scream and throw things. I'm just crying feeling every emotion at once. I usely listen to music to deal with them. But I need liquid courage our house is a dry house. Hubby has a drinking problem. I always feel this way at night or when hubby is at work. I only have the walls to talk to. All my friends are asleep. They never hear there phones. I need therapy physically and mentally. But can't afford it. Any suggestionsuggestions? Sometimes I feel like admitting my self but always afraid I'd never get out and I need my TV to fall sleep to. Anyone been admitted before? Can u tell me what it is like? Well back to TV hopefully it can distract me enough so I can fall asleep.my mind is racing so bad it's hard to make a complete thought to type. Thanks 4 listening!
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I am so sorry that you are hurting so badly. Is there a clinic nearby that you could go to? You should contact mental health services in your area. There has to be somewhere that you can get help. I was admitted to a pych ward 20 years ago for a major depressive episode. I spent 19 days in a facility in 2015. The first was only for 3 days so I can't say much about it. The second was originally to switch antidepressants. It was helpful.There were different groups each day. I think that might be a good idea for you. You would get out. The plus is that they should set you up with help when you are discharged .Think about it. I don't know if you take any medication but that would also be evaluated. I manage my clinical depression with medication and I have wonderful therapist. Please think about it. Reach out to services in your community. There are alot of clinics that have a sliding scale payment sytem. Let me know what you find out. You are not alone.
I wanted to add another thought. I think it is very important that you get evaluated by a therapist or psychiatrist. You need to know what is going on with you before you can make any decisions. I hope I've helped.