From waiting to expecting...

My last journal entry was pathetic.  True, but pathetic.  I'm trying to change my attitude and am finding some success.  I said I was "waiting for nothing" in my last entry ... I'm changing that now to "I'm expecting something!"  What exactly, I'm not sure but I need to raise the bar and set higher expectations for myself.   I think I was just feeling sorry for myself because of my foot situation.  I have a goal that involves hiking a long distance and was told by a doctor that it would never happen (without surgery).  I found a different doctor who feels differently ... but there's still that seed of doubt in my head.  An excuse ... a rip cord ... a reason not to achieve my goal ... a reason not to even try.  I don't want to quit on this goal.  I KNOW it's something I'm supposed to do.  I KNOW that I can do it .... but now it's just overcoming the fear.  I think that's what holds people back - fear. That's what holds me back. I need to accept it .... embrace it and move past it.  There are other, significant, hurdles blocking my path to achieving this goal ... mostly money ... but I know if I put my mind to it I can figure that out too.  I just need to keep believing in myself ... which is easier said than done.  For today, I believe.  I believe in myself and in my goals and in my purpose and in my future.  Guess I can only take it one day at a time ... and do my best ... today, I believe it's possible.