From despare to anger
For a few weeks now I have been sinking deeper and deeper into depresion. A couple days ago I decided I should try to reach out. That did not go well. It was sort of like standing on a ledge of a tall building and and screaming, "I'm here on the edge. Anyone want to put up a net? No? Anyone want to listen? No? Alrighty then"
A few hours ago this feeling of despare turned to anger. I've been working on a few story that I might publish in a book and decided I did not want to work on them any more because why bother? Why should I leave the world anything when it has just kicked me aside like dirty underwear? I've decided I am done with everything and every body until...I don't know when. I am not going to be giving any more of myself to this world. It's just not worth it.
A few hours ago this feeling of despare turned to anger. I've been working on a few story that I might publish in a book and decided I did not want to work on them any more because why bother? Why should I leave the world anything when it has just kicked me aside like dirty underwear? I've decided I am done with everything and every body until...I don't know when. I am not going to be giving any more of myself to this world. It's just not worth it.
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Hi Tim sorry to see you are struggling. I feel this way lately and something seems to happen when I reach out.. and that seems to be that people don\'t truely hear me. I fail to communicate how low I\'m feeling and people often give me very cold hard rational advice. Sometimes what we need is a little love and looking after but for a lot of us that just isn\'t available. The society we have built is cruel indeed, but when I feel sane again I will start being the change that I want to see again. I hope you can do the same and find what support you need. If you need someone to listen just pm me.
I am in your world of dispare ,and know how lost you must feel, we just became friends here on DS ,AND i AM HOPING I come to get to know you , it does not matter if we are heard ,cause the depression will away make us feel alone,I may not be able to offer comfort ,but I can understand .your hopeful friend LINDA :)