Friends, i need to write. this is serious stuff i need to discuss.

hi angel friends, i need to do some writing here. i first want to mention, i was emotional last evening, and night. i sent out a message, to friends, to reach out for support, and everyone except 1 friend, was supportive, but 1 friend came after me this morning, and i'm not gonna take that. i am a human being, i have feelings, emotions, and i feel it was ok, for me to seek support, and encouragement from friends. 

i know Ds has changed a lot over the past 7 months. many friends, have left, or don't visit much. i know how much that has hurt many friend's hearts. it has mine too. Ds has always been about family, sticking together, and  being there for eachother. i know it's been hard, and sometimes we have felt uprooted, due to the new DS, the changes. friends have kept in touch with me, here on the site, through the mail, email, texts/calls. i've always made an extra effort, to be there for everyone, and to be able to share in some times. 

i know, through my mom's facebook page, that many friends are on facebook now. that's ok, and i support friends. my mom has connected with friends on there, and sometimes a friend sends a note to me, and it's very nice :) lately, i've been hearing from a lot of friends, about their dislike of DS, and how it's become. i support friends, but i also support Ds. i have a person, who was asking me, to post messages here on DS, asking me to tell their friends, that they are unwell, and unable to visit Ds. i gladly helped that person, posting a message for them, but also was told, that that person posts often on facebook, and friends here, see that person on facebook posting often. now, i feel it made me look bad, that the person asks me to post here, that they are unable to visit ds, to say hi to everyone, but they can go on facebook to post? that's ok if they want to be like that, but i feel it made me look like i wasn't being truthful. last night, i sent a text out to friends, i saw many friends on my mom's facebook page, posting, and i noticed, it's friends who have either forgotten me it seems, and that don't write to me often, but will write to me when they need support. i always support everyone, but i felt very upset, that here i am, giving my all, and all i need sometimes, is a little friendship support, and felt left out, and forgotten by many friends.

last night, i sent a text out, i recieved numerous feedback texts, and support. i was very thankful for that. i felt emotional this morning too, because i miss friends, we all miss friends at times. i get a call from a person, who basically attacks me right away, for the text i sent last night, and was very rude to me. all i was doing, was reaching out to support. this same person, has come to me the same way before, and i was supportive of that person, and yet, when i need support, this person called me a bully. i believe, that is very unfair, and i feel very upset. all i did, was ask for support, during an emotional time, and i get slammed by this person, who seems to have anger issues. i don't want to deal with that anymore. i won't be treated like that, and expected to be there for the person all the time, supporting, and yes they have supported me, but for them, to suddenly just attack me like that, it's awful, and i'm standing up for myself.

i rarely reach out to everyone for support, i rarely do, it's not something i do often, but here i was, asking for support, almost everyone gets my back, and says they're there for me, but 1 person, slams me hard. i won't take that anymore. this person should apologize to me, and not attack me, and also, this person themselves, can come onto DS, and let their friends know, from now on, that they are unwell to post here, but can post a lot on facebook, which is their choice, but i'm not gonna be the errand boy, messenger boy anymore. i've had it with that, and i didn't deserve to be attacked. this same person, come to me in same situation before, upset about friends not writing to them, and i support them, but they come after me, when i needed support. no more, i'm not giving that person my energy, or my spirit, anymore. 

i am here for friends, and always will be, and i thank those who have stuck with me, and been here for me, and encourage me. i wear my heart on my sleeve :)i don't feel i need to apologize to that person, because i wrote to them needing support. i would never attack a friend, or anyone, who needs support. 

that's who i am,but it seems, this person has changed over the years. i see how it is. i'm gonna continue to be  me, writing, helping, and being a loyal friend, who cares. 

-never lose hope, i never will :)