Friday
It is finally Friday and not much going on at work today. Ex boyfriend from NJ reached out to me yesterday. When we were dating over a year ago, I had gone to NJ to be with him for the rest of my life. But, there was an incident that happened and I panicked, packed up and ran. I realize this might have been hasty of me. We are atleast talking as friends now and I'd be happy if he feel in love with someone and moved forward. Roomie has decided we are going out of town this weekend which I will believe when I'm actually in the car headed in a direction. As for the man who is my soulmate, I finally ended that for good. I just found myself wanting to drink heavily after dealing with him and the truths in the wine....we aren't good for each other. Now, I just need the strength to not unblock him. I'm tired of being a glutton for punishment.
I went to my first AA meeting last Sunday. I was hungover and felt like death but understand why I need to go. I need to save myself as things could get much worse and I don't want to go down that destructive road.
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It sounds like you are doing alot of constructive things in your life....you know what you want and you know how to go about getting it.....or letting it go.
Your post reminded me when I went through my divorce. I was happy my ex had someone else that could make her happy, because I was so tired of having to cater to her. About 6 months later, her relationship with her friend wasn't going so well so she wanted me back but I was enjoying my freedom so I declined. We are still friends though because carrying resentments around only hurts me in the long run so I learned to let them go.
Good luck to you! I hope everything works out.