Friday 1/31/2014
8:21am
The pain settled down before bed last night so thank God for small favors. This morning it's around a 3 which is pretty normal. I guess we will see how the day goes. I'm hoping I don't have to adjust the level unless its down!
Meeting today at 10am and 1pm. I'm hoping to sneak in a workout in between. I expect the day to go by pretty quickly.
Mentally I'm doing pretty good so that's a plus. 1/2 Klonopin each morning and no anxiety so I think I can start to wein off over the next few months. I'll work with the doc on that one.
More coffee then I can start looking at this new project docs...
10:39am
They cancelled the staff meeting so that gave me time to start working on that new project. I don't have all of the info but I have the basics working so that is good. I should get more details at the 1pm meeting.
I'm trying to motivate to lift now. My stomach isn't too happy from some reason. I didn't eat anything different but who knows...I'm falling apart :) The pain has been mild so far today so that is a good thing. It's minute to minute with this stupid pain. Praying it goes away someday soon.
Anyway, I think a light workout would do me well...zero motivation but it's better then nothing!
7:41pm
So I upped my pain level to 4 for the day...ugh. I feel more bad for my mom because I know how sad it makes her that I'm dealing with this but I can't lie to her as she has mom sense and knows when I'm lying :) I've just given in to the fact that this is my life now and for the current future. Hope for the best prepare for the worst. It still holds me back from some things but as long as I can do my work and exercise a few days a week that's all I need.
I used some of the pain cream. It doesn't really help much it just sort of changes the pain to more of a tingling. Maybe the doc will have some new ideas but if not I think that's it. I'm tired of wasting time and money on doctors that can't help. If this is my life then so be it.
I'm boring myself talking about this nonsense. Anyway, I have a bunch of new video games my uncle gave me some movies to watch so that will keep my mind on something else.
Monday I'll start working on the new UNLINE project and I need to schedule that sales install. That should keep me busy until the big projects start to roll in.
I'm hoping for a nice boring mild pain weekend...guess we will find out :)
The pain settled down before bed last night so thank God for small favors. This morning it's around a 3 which is pretty normal. I guess we will see how the day goes. I'm hoping I don't have to adjust the level unless its down!
Meeting today at 10am and 1pm. I'm hoping to sneak in a workout in between. I expect the day to go by pretty quickly.
Mentally I'm doing pretty good so that's a plus. 1/2 Klonopin each morning and no anxiety so I think I can start to wein off over the next few months. I'll work with the doc on that one.
More coffee then I can start looking at this new project docs...
10:39am
They cancelled the staff meeting so that gave me time to start working on that new project. I don't have all of the info but I have the basics working so that is good. I should get more details at the 1pm meeting.
I'm trying to motivate to lift now. My stomach isn't too happy from some reason. I didn't eat anything different but who knows...I'm falling apart :) The pain has been mild so far today so that is a good thing. It's minute to minute with this stupid pain. Praying it goes away someday soon.
Anyway, I think a light workout would do me well...zero motivation but it's better then nothing!
7:41pm
So I upped my pain level to 4 for the day...ugh. I feel more bad for my mom because I know how sad it makes her that I'm dealing with this but I can't lie to her as she has mom sense and knows when I'm lying :) I've just given in to the fact that this is my life now and for the current future. Hope for the best prepare for the worst. It still holds me back from some things but as long as I can do my work and exercise a few days a week that's all I need.
I used some of the pain cream. It doesn't really help much it just sort of changes the pain to more of a tingling. Maybe the doc will have some new ideas but if not I think that's it. I'm tired of wasting time and money on doctors that can't help. If this is my life then so be it.
I'm boring myself talking about this nonsense. Anyway, I have a bunch of new video games my uncle gave me some movies to watch so that will keep my mind on something else.
Monday I'll start working on the new UNLINE project and I need to schedule that sales install. That should keep me busy until the big projects start to roll in.
I'm hoping for a nice boring mild pain weekend...guess we will find out :)
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Sound like you are making progress. That is great!
Sorry the pain went up yesterday. I\'m hoping that going 3 days with level 3 is an improvement from where you were, I know this has got to be so hard to deal with.
Aging does suck. I\'m 58 so I know more than you! The pain is what\'s getting you down. We all use to laugh that when you hit 40 something just happens and you start losing body parts. Then I know this woman that is 69 and you would swear she might be 50. I really hate her (LOL). Sounds like you are aging well. Just gotta get through this damn pain. Klonopin is working for your anxiety, so keep going out with your friends. Go on the vacation. Something to look forward to. And tell me honestly, your in your 40\'s, you don\'t want to be one of those guys that doesn\'t continue to grow do you????? Hope your spirits lift and your day goes well. Much love, many hugs, Tami
I admire your push! You just keep pushing no matter the pain. That\'s a beautiful quality to have! Love that your into video games too! My son has gotten me hooked watching him play Mario on the Wii U! Hang in there scg! A medication is right around the corner.......