Friday

Feeling quite low this morning, my depression seems to be worse in the mornings, I get up and wonder what I am going to do with myself all day, of course theres lots of housework etc that i could be doing but i really cant be bothered, my house is starting to look like a tip which makes me feel even worse. I feel better if i have got something planned but when i#m out soing something I just think whats the point?? Am going away next week to stay with a friend for a few days, cant really afford it but just thought what the hell, might as well go, I seem to have loads of time on my hands which I am not used to at all and cant think of what i used to do to keep busy, I always seemed to have something to do but now I cant imagine what it was?? Am rambling now but it does help to get all this out, I am lucky cos I can talk to my husband/sister/friends but It doesnt always help, I want to be the happy go lucky person I was in my 20,s, just dont know what happended to that girl??