Friday

Yesterday I was at the dentist, getting a chipped tooth fixed, and  I got to thinking, we go to dentists for tooth problems, the doc for body probs, a psycologist for mind problems, a mechanic for car problems, and we do this without even thinking. We just call them up, make an appointment, and we're off. why does it take us so long to go to A.A. with an alcohol prolbem? it took me years.They are the ones that know how we feel, and help us get well. I tried an alcohol counsellor a few years ago, she told me to write down every time I wanted to drink. She also told me to cut back. HA HA HA HA HA. there was no cutting back for me, its the FIRST drink that gets me in trouble. this is true as well, for the people at my meetings. We all had trouble stopping once we got started. I wish I had gone sooner, However, I am not going to dwell on that. I am happy now that I am there, and sober, and doing my steps to make myself emotionally healthy, and to clean up the wreckage of my past. I find that I used to wish I had this or that, like lots of money, or a better place to live, or a newer car, you know, on and on.Now, I find that to live happy, I only have to live each day as if its my last, therefore, I wont spend the day in fear. For, its fear that generally keeps us going back to booze. today, I am closer to God, I try to do what He wants me to do. Therefore keeping self will from running riot again. It was a book I was reading that made me think like this. and really, life is so much easier this way.My pregnant cat is starting to look like she has all her bags packed, lol. I cant wait to see the babies. I hope they all have her extremely fluffy tail.I am off to put out a couple job applications today, I have decided that McDonalds could be a fun place to work until I decide what else I would like to do. at least its a pay cheque. yay! I hope everyone has a beautiful day.