fri nov 13 09

very bad day today, some breakthrough pain because I have been off the celebrex. Can't afford to refill right now and it is one that I can go off of without any problem except pain...lol so tired I can't really function, but I can't nap either...wth is up with that! My breathing has been really bad with headaches and I know that is contributing to the tiredness. I just feel so low that I'll never be able to climb up again, even though I know that that's not the case. Everything is just a matter of time, but it is hard to see through the dark to the light, even though you know it is there. Everything else in my life is good why is it that money seems to rule everything else? My kids are healthy and doing well, my husband is a good man and supportive as much as he can understand what I am going through. I have friends and a roof over my head so why am I so down? Is it just the stress over our money problems or is it all health related? I have to stop looking on the internet because every time that I do I think I'm going to die from this lung disease, there seems to be no help and it is ireversible, so if they can't stop the progress I'm doomed it seems.