Freakin...

So I am moving to California in 59 days!!! I am so ready to leave Dallas behind me, as I am getting frustrated with working for such little compensation here and constantly struggling to make it by... however my sister, morther, brother in law, and father are making me feel awfully guilty, and I can't figure out why. My sister has made a great family for herself and has a picture perfect life... they try and guide me but never actually helped me really, my sister has always been very selfish. (7 years older, and she was biologically related to my adoptive parents). They want me to "kiss and make up" with my mom when they don't know the half of what my mother has done and said to me. They keep taking her side because she has had "such a hard life" but no one acknowledges that her life became mine as a young child. I will never deprive my children of a childhood the way she did. Ready to move! Want to fix these loose ends tho. Also my bro in law asked me if I was taking benzos again. Ive been sober for 8 months. Not cool... still upset about it. Do I just leave it all behind, or try and mend these broken relationships... I will miss my 3 niece and nephews, all under 5... but its not worth them demeaning me and treating me like I am 18