Found Some Strength Today...

I stayed busy today and I'm feeling good... I hope it lasts. I'm tired of the emotional rollercoaster.  I am coming to a realization: He has been a douchebag for a long time.. He's not going to change. It doesn't matter what I say or do.. I have no control over him and his stupid decisions. I dont want to let him drag me down with him.  I dont want to set a bad example for my kids by staying involved with a cheater.  If I stay involved they are going to think cheating is ok and my daughter may end up having low standards because of me.  I dont want that.  I cant be the best mom I can be when I allow him to abuse me and stress me out.  I need to focus on myself, my kids, and school.  I can do this.  I am strong.  I dont need him or the problems that go along with him.  It is what it is and I need to fully accept that.