FOUND!
Who would have thought that digging deep into my past and myself would be exactly where I'd find myself, but that's what happened!
Over the past few months, the pain of grief had me reviewing all my hurts, all my mistakes, and all the positive things that have happened through out my life in an attempt to find out the answers to all those WHY questions I had.
And in doing so, I began to see where I took the wrong paths... and could see the right ones too, and I realized I could begin immediately... I began to see how much I lost who I am in my marriage... and I suddenly saw myself... at age 16. SIXTEEN... At 16, I was beginning to become an adult... at 16, I met my husband... at 16, I had the world in front of me and had no idea where to go, what direction to take....
And in my review, I discovered that the 16 year old me never left. She's still there, exactly in the same place...
EXCEPT, that now, that 16 year old me has 30 years of experience to take from, to use, to build on... and that 16 year old me no longer has the fears that were so prominent back then... and it's from that 16 year old me that I'm stepping forward....
My research on the dog business is almost done and I begin making my plans this next week... and I've discovered (been lead to) where I'll be able to come up with the money to do it. My fears are fading... almost gone now... and this is SO EXCITING! Gotta run again! Later!
Over the past few months, the pain of grief had me reviewing all my hurts, all my mistakes, and all the positive things that have happened through out my life in an attempt to find out the answers to all those WHY questions I had.
And in doing so, I began to see where I took the wrong paths... and could see the right ones too, and I realized I could begin immediately... I began to see how much I lost who I am in my marriage... and I suddenly saw myself... at age 16. SIXTEEN... At 16, I was beginning to become an adult... at 16, I met my husband... at 16, I had the world in front of me and had no idea where to go, what direction to take....
And in my review, I discovered that the 16 year old me never left. She's still there, exactly in the same place...
EXCEPT, that now, that 16 year old me has 30 years of experience to take from, to use, to build on... and that 16 year old me no longer has the fears that were so prominent back then... and it's from that 16 year old me that I'm stepping forward....
My research on the dog business is almost done and I begin making my plans this next week... and I've discovered (been lead to) where I'll be able to come up with the money to do it. My fears are fading... almost gone now... and this is SO EXCITING! Gotta run again! Later!
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How fantastic! Can\'t wait to hear how everything is going next week! (((HUGS)))
Love the positive vibe! & I am glad there is so much closure creeping in while another door opens... ;)