Forgiveness

I think I need to make my new immediate goal about forgiveness.  I think that is the biggest obstacle that I face right now in my search to move forward in my emotional life.  I find my thoughts going back and forth and back and forth and I'm so tired of going over it through and through in my mind.  Part of it is that I didn't have closure...that there wasn't an ending so to speak.  And he never told me how he felt and that he was sorry....I don't know if I'll ever hear those words or ever see him again!  HA....I have to learn not to dwell on the things that I can't control.The saddest thing about this past year has been my social life or the lack of one!  Every weekend, my son says to me, what are you doing?  And it seems like every weekend, I'm like not much.  I do get out but not much and now with the weather getting nice, it would be so great to be able to share the summer with someone...whether it's a good friend, male or female.   I'm trying but it just doesn't seem to come together....Anyway....that's how I feel today.  Maybe tomorrow will be a new feeling......I can only pray for that.....