Forever Intertwinned.

each of us have experience the worst of the worst in this life. We have gone through something we would never wish on our worst emeny. Although we wish our friends. Our family could just understand that in some way they could feel what it feels like when you have lost your child. But we know they don't. We did not know that feeling until the day it happened to us. It is only when you have experienced this horrible loss can you feel the worst pain your heart ever felt  A pain we wish we had never known what it feels like. Yet here we are in this group our lives have now become intertwined never to be changed no matter where we go where we turn, how we may try to escape none of us can.  As we are in this group we continue to watch new hurting moms come and become intertwined in each of our lives.   Whether we become friends and share our pain or maybe we don't talk to each other our lives have now become one together in this huge ball of pain. I think of the Large Ball of Twine somewhere farther west than I live and as I read about it it reminds me of each of us in some ways. Not in the way that people go to see it and the enjoyment they see as it gets bigger and bigger as the string is continuously intertwined as it is with our lives. Our lives are not something others see amazing if they see us at all but we know we are intertwined together as a group because we have lost our child. The ball of twine could be cut into a million pieces and all would be left is pieces of string. Our lives will always be connected and nothing will change that.   seems daily I hear another mom has lost their child my heart breaks as I know, we know that now whether they find this group, they have now became intertwined with us. As much as we wish we were not a part of this ...that our paths had never crossed, they have and all we can do now is to help each other in the times of need.