Forever Alone :p

   Today just kind of slipped through my fingers. I don't know where the time went. Like life just left for a while.
   I don't want to go to homecoming, I can't even tell you... Dances are awkward anyway. My friends all have boyfriends and I look like the 'forever alone' guy on tumblr.
   Jesa (my best friend) says that she's going to make me. But she, and no one really, understands what happens to my chest when I am in a crowd. It cramps up and I just can't breathe. No one knows what that's like. No one has ever run out in the middle of class and outside the building just to get away and attempt to breathe. I'm alone in this stupid war right now. So what, I don't want to go to homecoming. Big deal, no one is going to die if I don't go.
   I like the before stuff, like getting all dressed up and maybe going out to dinner. Why can't I just do that? I don't want to waste my money watching freshman make out with each other and cry. Maybe I'll go on a dinner date or something. Cass is going to a consert, Christina's car is broken. Hm... Maybe I'll man up and ask Ryan out... Again. Haha.
   I just don't want to go. Persacute me.