Forever Alone

It f**ken sucks! But its starting to seem more of a reality to me. I just f**ken hate me, I wish I could bloody push myself! But I can't do f**ken anything! I might as well just die! I almost wish I could die! I wish someone would shoot me in the head and put me out of my misery. Because my F**KEN LIFE SUCKS!And being alone makes me feel like I'm ugly and fat. That I am repulsive, and that is also why no one wants to be with. Man I wish I was 49 Kg! Then maybe I'd feel a bit better. But that also is impossible. Everything in my F**ken life is impossible! I'm F**ken impossible!There's just nothing that helps, everything I do, turns out for the worst. Instead of going forwards I end up going backwards!I don't know I'm just a F**ked up person!