forced to get out of the house

It was the second day of new year. While everybody was enjoying, I got up in the morning just to hear :
'line vine ziss kaka-pipi ici' not to say those more harsh words.He did not have any regret or any feelings just to say that he did not mean it while I was weeping there for hours.
I do not know why life is being so harsh and hard for me. I never do wrong things. I stay in my limits. I want to progress. I want support and like everybody else I want to be accepted not by society but by my family. My family itself is not supportive, what to I do. I have no words to describe apart from sadness which has always been with me since the beginning.
It really pains. I do not know what to do. I do not want to end everything just like this. I am always hoping that there is something good coming to me but like a fool I am just waiting and waiting. Nothing is really coming up or showing itself.
I believe that the worse punishment someone can have is loneliness. And, I am being punished I do not know what for.
I will not go there now. I need to make that a goal and try to live by myself and depend only on myself. Noone is going to support me apart from me.
Amen