Follow? Lead? Oops!
Well, my dear peeps, been a while, eh? Just been doing a lot of praying asking what God wants me to do, and wouldn't you know it, God has me going down a path I never thought I would and goes against ALL my human logic. Ain't He good at that? LOL Am I sure? Absolutely. Am I scared? Absolutely. LOL I mean, I am so logical I could be Mr. Spock of Star Trek! Maybe that's why I spend so much time asking "why" about things and constantly researching trying to understand. This is not a bad thing in control.
OK, so, I shall be honest and forthright although scared stiff. I am now "officially" an ordained minister as of 03/09/2010. There, I said it publicly, so to speak.
Yes, I know....I told God a long time ago He could have my soul but the "deal" was I never wanted anything to do with ministry or being a minister's wife, etc. I'm a PK (preacher's kid) and I saw first hand what it costs personally. Not "bad" but with all things, nothing is free as there is cost....even gum isn't free.
So, now I am going about praying what does this mean? I mean, I have all these preconceived ideas of what ministers look like, act like, talk like, etc. And I am trying to figure out how in the world my personality is going to fit in THAT type of mold. I could see my baby sister more in this role than myself as she is meek, temperate, mild, calm, etc. Me, well, if you don't know by now, I'm the Jalapeno pepper of the family. ROFLOL No, not cruel or mean, but FIRM and you never have to guess what I think or mean.
I try to keep remembering that Joyce Meyers is doing God's calling and her personality is a lot like mine. So, I continue to struggle with my preconceived notions & images as I walk step by step in faith to fulfill what God is calling me to do.
I've always went and did as I pleased, so to FOLLOW in this capacity is a new thing for me. God must be God of all things in my life or He can't be God of anything in my life. Isn't that what the Grace Lessons and Closet Heart Lessons were all about? I believe now, looking back, it was God preparing me to FOLLOW more closely.
It isn't required that I not be afraid to FOLLOW. It isn't required that I know every exact thing before I face it to FOLLOW. It DOES require me to trust & believe (Grace Lessons), and hold nothing back from God to use (Closet Heart Lessons).
So, I am learning my position is NOT TO LEAD but to FOLLOW. Follow closely and as accurately as I possibly can by staying in the presence of my Saviour, Jesus Christ, sitting at His feet listening and not telling Him how to do His work. I am the servant not the employer. I take the orders, I don't give them. Rather a hard lesson to learn for a strong willed hard headed Irish gal but I am, by the grace of God, learning & willing......
Hugs & love to all my peeps.
OK, so, I shall be honest and forthright although scared stiff. I am now "officially" an ordained minister as of 03/09/2010. There, I said it publicly, so to speak.
Yes, I know....I told God a long time ago He could have my soul but the "deal" was I never wanted anything to do with ministry or being a minister's wife, etc. I'm a PK (preacher's kid) and I saw first hand what it costs personally. Not "bad" but with all things, nothing is free as there is cost....even gum isn't free.
So, now I am going about praying what does this mean? I mean, I have all these preconceived ideas of what ministers look like, act like, talk like, etc. And I am trying to figure out how in the world my personality is going to fit in THAT type of mold. I could see my baby sister more in this role than myself as she is meek, temperate, mild, calm, etc. Me, well, if you don't know by now, I'm the Jalapeno pepper of the family. ROFLOL No, not cruel or mean, but FIRM and you never have to guess what I think or mean.
I try to keep remembering that Joyce Meyers is doing God's calling and her personality is a lot like mine. So, I continue to struggle with my preconceived notions & images as I walk step by step in faith to fulfill what God is calling me to do.
I've always went and did as I pleased, so to FOLLOW in this capacity is a new thing for me. God must be God of all things in my life or He can't be God of anything in my life. Isn't that what the Grace Lessons and Closet Heart Lessons were all about? I believe now, looking back, it was God preparing me to FOLLOW more closely.
It isn't required that I not be afraid to FOLLOW. It isn't required that I know every exact thing before I face it to FOLLOW. It DOES require me to trust & believe (Grace Lessons), and hold nothing back from God to use (Closet Heart Lessons).
So, I am learning my position is NOT TO LEAD but to FOLLOW. Follow closely and as accurately as I possibly can by staying in the presence of my Saviour, Jesus Christ, sitting at His feet listening and not telling Him how to do His work. I am the servant not the employer. I take the orders, I don't give them. Rather a hard lesson to learn for a strong willed hard headed Irish gal but I am, by the grace of God, learning & willing......
Hugs & love to all my peeps.
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Love you too. Its not our abilities but HIS. Look at the prophets humble, meek ordinary men who did extraordinary things through GODs power, and my sweet sister You will too.
Sounds cleche, but God\'s direction /leading, is also His empowerment. That\'s the good news, but with it comes a severe accountability................I be just a wee tad terrified for you, my young friend!
Be Blessed, have Grace imparted, and know you are loved & prayed for ;-).
All you have to do is ask God \"What do you want me to do?\" He will use you mightily! All of God\'s chosen have been \"different\". Moses was a murderer, Peter was a blustery fisherman, Paul was an elitist. If that doesn\'t show you that God uses all types I don\'t know what will. You are open to the Spirit\'s leading and the rest will follow. Congratualtions on being courageous enough to take the steps to become a Minister! I am personally impressed that you pressed on to the prize, despite the many physical challenges you cope with daily. Thanks for doing that, it gives me hope!
Nan
My dear dear Andro - Oh, how I do so adore you. You are a real treasure! Yep, I think I am just afraid of the \"fire\" which is sure to come. But then tell me when did following God not require getting talked about, shunned, thrown stones at, eh? His shield will be my protection as will the rest of His armor. Love to you!
My dear sweet wonderful Carol...... LOL, honey, I\'m already considering wearing Depends! ROFLOL I\'ll either be in \"it\" up to my butt because of following where I know God has sent me or I\'ll be the one going! ROFLOL Love and hugs my dear friend.... And yes, I ain\'t so frozen or stupid not to be MORE than a wee tad terrified.
My dear friend & listening ear, Nan...... LOL, honey, I don\'t know if any of those were quite the Jalapeno I am....well, maybe good ole St. Pete, eh? Elijah was none to quiet either as I recall. I stand firm in my conviction that I am doing exactly as God has ask.....He knows I fought hard enough to get Him to change His mind.....In case you wonder, I couldn\'t. LOL Love to you bunches.
Jalapeno huh? Maybe those sons of Thunder, James and John? Outspoken Martha? Or that crazy Zacheus! You are in good company!
Hmmm, maybe there are more loud mouths and hot heads than I thought. LOL I never denied God\'s got a lot of work to do on me. It sure won\'t be done in 6 days like the earth!!! ROFLOL