Follow? Lead? Oops!
Well, my dear peeps, been a while, eh? Just been doing a lot of praying asking what God wants me to do, and wouldn't you know it, God has me going down a path I never thought I would and goes against ALL my human logic. Ain't He good at that? LOL Am I sure? Absolutely. Am I scared? Absolutely. LOL I mean, I am so logical I could be Mr. Spock of Star Trek! Maybe that's why I spend so much time asking "why" about things and constantly researching trying to understand. This is not a bad thing in control.
OK, so, I shall be honest and forthright although scared stiff. I am now "officially" an ordained minister as of 03/09/2010. There, I said it publicly, so to speak.
Yes, I know....I told God a long time ago He could have my soul but the "deal" was I never wanted anything to do with ministry or being a minister's wife, etc. I'm a PK (preacher's kid) and I saw first hand what it costs personally. Not "bad" but with all things, nothing is free as there is cost....even gum isn't free.
So, now I am going about praying what does this mean? I mean, I have all these preconceived ideas of what ministers look like, act like, talk like, etc. And I am trying to figure out how in the world my personality is going to fit in THAT type of mold. I could see my baby sister more in this role than myself as she is meek, temperate, mild, calm, etc. Me, well, if you don't know by now, I'm the Jalapeno pepper of the family. ROFLOL No, not cruel or mean, but FIRM and you never have to guess what I think or mean.
I try to keep remembering that Joyce Meyers is doing God's calling and her personality is a lot like mine. So, I continue to struggle with my preconceived notions & images as I walk step by step in faith to fulfill what God is calling me to do.
I've always went and did as I pleased, so to FOLLOW in this capacity is a new thing for me. God must be God of all things in my life or He can't be God of anything in my life. Isn't that what the Grace Lessons and Closet Heart Lessons were all about? I believe now, looking back, it was God preparing me to FOLLOW more closely.
It isn't required that I not be afraid to FOLLOW. It isn't required that I know every exact thing before I face it to FOLLOW. It DOES require me to trust & believe (Grace Lessons), and hold nothing back from God to use (Closet Heart Lessons).
So, I am learning my position is NOT TO LEAD but to FOLLOW. Follow closely and as accurately as I possibly can by staying in the presence of my Saviour, Jesus Christ, sitting at His feet listening and not telling Him how to do His work. I am the servant not the employer. I take the orders, I don't give them. Rather a hard lesson to learn for a strong willed hard headed Irish gal but I am, by the grace of God, learning & willing......
Hugs & love to all my peeps.
OK, so, I shall be honest and forthright although scared stiff. I am now "officially" an ordained minister as of 03/09/2010. There, I said it publicly, so to speak.
Yes, I know....I told God a long time ago He could have my soul but the "deal" was I never wanted anything to do with ministry or being a minister's wife, etc. I'm a PK (preacher's kid) and I saw first hand what it costs personally. Not "bad" but with all things, nothing is free as there is cost....even gum isn't free.
So, now I am going about praying what does this mean? I mean, I have all these preconceived ideas of what ministers look like, act like, talk like, etc. And I am trying to figure out how in the world my personality is going to fit in THAT type of mold. I could see my baby sister more in this role than myself as she is meek, temperate, mild, calm, etc. Me, well, if you don't know by now, I'm the Jalapeno pepper of the family. ROFLOL No, not cruel or mean, but FIRM and you never have to guess what I think or mean.
I try to keep remembering that Joyce Meyers is doing God's calling and her personality is a lot like mine. So, I continue to struggle with my preconceived notions & images as I walk step by step in faith to fulfill what God is calling me to do.
I've always went and did as I pleased, so to FOLLOW in this capacity is a new thing for me. God must be God of all things in my life or He can't be God of anything in my life. Isn't that what the Grace Lessons and Closet Heart Lessons were all about? I believe now, looking back, it was God preparing me to FOLLOW more closely.
It isn't required that I not be afraid to FOLLOW. It isn't required that I know every exact thing before I face it to FOLLOW. It DOES require me to trust & believe (Grace Lessons), and hold nothing back from God to use (Closet Heart Lessons).
So, I am learning my position is NOT TO LEAD but to FOLLOW. Follow closely and as accurately as I possibly can by staying in the presence of my Saviour, Jesus Christ, sitting at His feet listening and not telling Him how to do His work. I am the servant not the employer. I take the orders, I don't give them. Rather a hard lesson to learn for a strong willed hard headed Irish gal but I am, by the grace of God, learning & willing......
Hugs & love to all my peeps.
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