Flying off the handle
I feel like a failure. I have an amazing boyfriend that not only treats me good but treats my daughter good too. He is just a great guy and I don't treat him good.I have rage issues and I break things, throw things, inflict pain on myself (banging my head on shit, punching myself or hard objects), say hurtful things.Last night I flipped out because I found pictures of a girl my boyfriend dated like 4 years ago sucking his cock and naked pictures of her, and still right now thinking about it, it makes me sick. We have only been dating a few months but I felt really bad about myself, even though we take sexual pictures together too. He explained he did not notice they were there but I don't know, I'm not a guy. He is affectioniate to me and he is always telling me how sexy I am. But then I kept asking him questions about her and he didn't want to talk about it like "was she good in bed?" "was she good at what she was doing in that picture"I'm just confused whether or not those are questions I should be asking.I'm very insecure and I completely flipped out on him, firing questions, making nasty comments, throwing shit, calling him names, yelling, etc. I don't like flipping out like that but I don't know how else to express how hurt it made me without getting angry. I'm a horrible person. or maybe I just have a sex addict on my hands.
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That was yesterday I\'m sure you didnt see anything you havent done yourself. I\'m sure you\'ve had boyfriends that you have memories of. The point is you can allow yesterday to ruin your today if you allow it. You said it yourself he treats you right he thinks you\'re sexy and you guys have a good relationship. A lot of people would be envious of your relationship.
The pics, yes he knew they were in there, you don\'t forget things like that in your phone. It doesn\'t mean that he doesn\'t care about you, he probably was just holding on to the past and didn\'t want to destroy them.
They were on his computer, I guess I can see how those could be looked over but he didn\'t have that many pictures on there. He wasn\'t opposed to deleting them though..
Thank you Greg for that encouragement and Paul20011 I\'m not sure if he was \"holding\" on to the past, they werent boyfriend and girlfriend when those pictures were taken... i dont know hes a great guy and i definitely do not want to lose him..
Yeah he knew and he should have just manned it up and admitted he knew rather than saying he \'did not notice they were there\'... that\'s just lame and i don\'t blame you for flying off the handle really. Not so much for whether he still likes her or not but more for the fact he still got em, or that he tried to pass it off like you didn\'t know any better! As for this girl, i know it\'s a chore but you got to keep the past in the past. What happened has happened and you got to draw a line under it. I had a girlfriend who had a past... geez she had a past lol, and yeah sometimes it got to me!! However, i have not been an angel myself so it can\'t be one rule for one and one rule for another! I\'m sure you have a history!! He should delete the pictures now they\'ve been discovered. It\'s a mark of respect. But hey, if you want to get back at him you can have some nekked pics of me to download! I\'m sure the other guys on here would help you out too.. right?
haha I\'m not really out for revenge, I can\'t imagine how he would feel if he found something like that on my computer. I\'m sure he would pretty damn upset actually and might accuse me of knowing they were there. I mean I guess he would? Either way he came home and deleted them and I haven\'t seen anything pop up since.