Flashbacks

Satan has been attacking me left and right ever since Sept. 1 rolled around.  I have been having flashbacks galore because the one year anniversary of the rape is quickly approaching, and he has to keep reminding me of it.  I remember all the stuff I felt that terrible night, and wish my neighbor dead because of what he did to me.  I hate the twerp.  I long for him to come to Christ, but what he did to me is between him and God.  I just wish he didn't do what he did to me because I am scarred for life.  I was doing fine until it hit September.  What can I do to get through this month?  Any advice?  I know I am not avoiding the problem, instead the problem is coming to me.  What do I do?  I am in a lot of pain, and the closer it gets to the date, the more angry I get.  I am glad I am writing this out right now, but am lost on what to do.  I am in the Word daily and in prayer, but both are suffering right now because of Satan.  I need your help.  Any advice?   Thank you.