Fixing house

I've decided to fix my father's house.  In other words, I've hired a decorator and will be changing the interior of the house.  I'm doing it because living there is hard enough, but living with the memories is even harder. 
About ten years ago, I lived there with my parents to care for my mother who was dying.  After she passed, I lived there because my father needed me.  I moved out after I married and he'd recuparated from surgery.  Now, when I visit, I see rooms that remind me of Mom and rooms that remind me of my husband.  All those memories, all bittersweet. 
My father put it nicely.  He said we will be merging our two museums: my Mom's stuff and my husband's stuff.  Whereas I don't mind some of it, I realized Dad was right.  His house hadn't been changed in the ten years since Mom's death.  And now, I was coming back with my chair 1/2--a place that my husband and I used to sit in and now I can't bear to sit in it at all.
I'm moving within a month.  When I do I'll leave the furniture and take the photographs and the memories I hold in my heart, but for my sanity I need a fresh start.  I need to see a new me, new furniture, a totally redecorated house.  It'll cost some money, but just being involved with the project is brightening my days.  It certainly is making the move easier.  I feel like I'm walking into the future and leaving the past behind.
 
See you one day in Heaven, honey, but for now I've got to move towards the future.
 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m glad you\'re changing your venue - it will be good for both you and your father - and how very engrossing a home decorating project will be for you! Hope it all goes smoothly.

Hugs, Gail
tessandbarney
tessandbarney

It\'s good that you\'ve decided on this fresh start in your old home. Your father\'s comment about merging two museums could so easily have become the way you both lived together which would do you no good at all in moving forward. I\'m so pleased that the interest and activity is helping you through the days and hopefully the new interest will bring you and your father to a new understanding. Thinking of you and sending hugs, Lottie
ricebells
ricebells

You will enjoy doing this,good luck
Alice
janalM
janalM

what an exciting project. It sounds like your father is on board with this move, it will make it easier. A fresh start for both of you. Good luck with it, and have fun doing it. Hugs Jane
deleted_user
deleted_user

It certainly will be a fun project redecorating your Father\'s home. Picking out the paints and wallpaper (if that is your choice). We were in the midist of re-doing our home when my husband passed away. I have finished the livingroom and now working on the bedroom...hugs, Ellen