First time here in a very long time
Here I am again reaching out when I'm hurting. Life has just kept going downhill since my husband died almost two years ago. This week was the anniversary of the death of my son. In a couple of weeks it will be the anniversary of my husband's passing. Last week was my birthday (78). And tomorrow is Christmas.
Having lost most of my income, I've had to move. Now I am living in a dump. In Feb. I'll have to give up my leased car. I see my independance slipping away.
Add to all this the fact that I tore my ankle tendon three months after losing my husband. It healed, but then I had to hold yard sales and pack and move. Yes, I've reinjured it. Now I am back in the knee-high boot, which is hard to walk in and I am always in danger of falling. I can't get the MRI that the foot doctor wants, because my co-pay right now would be $150 that I don't have. I am changing my health care plan and will be able to get that after the first of the year.
Oh, yes, the last thing. I sold my house to my son and daughter-in-law. He left and went back to their state to work and she stayed here to "help" me. She left me pack my own belongings for three days and then took over. She had dumped my stuff on my screened porch (same as if in the yard) in a jumble. I have a long list of lost items. My long time hobby was gardening. Most of my plants have died before I could get them transferred. Not that I can now do any gardening with this tendon problem.
So that's it. Even though I've moved to a smaller, cheaper place I still can't make ends meet. I am alone and depressed.
Having lost most of my income, I've had to move. Now I am living in a dump. In Feb. I'll have to give up my leased car. I see my independance slipping away.
Add to all this the fact that I tore my ankle tendon three months after losing my husband. It healed, but then I had to hold yard sales and pack and move. Yes, I've reinjured it. Now I am back in the knee-high boot, which is hard to walk in and I am always in danger of falling. I can't get the MRI that the foot doctor wants, because my co-pay right now would be $150 that I don't have. I am changing my health care plan and will be able to get that after the first of the year.
Oh, yes, the last thing. I sold my house to my son and daughter-in-law. He left and went back to their state to work and she stayed here to "help" me. She left me pack my own belongings for three days and then took over. She had dumped my stuff on my screened porch (same as if in the yard) in a jumble. I have a long list of lost items. My long time hobby was gardening. Most of my plants have died before I could get them transferred. Not that I can now do any gardening with this tendon problem.
So that's it. Even though I've moved to a smaller, cheaper place I still can't make ends meet. I am alone and depressed.
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Oh Janni! I had no idea. ((((HUGS))) You poor dear. Lord have mercy and look upon you and give you favor.. in Jesus name! May God touch you and give you His peace, that passes all understands and send someone to help you.. In Jesus name.. Amen... Dear come post and talk to us .. you are loved!
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Thank you! I don\'t think I\'d be making it if I didn\'t have my little church to attend. I get dressed and go, just to be among nice people. I\'ve waited for one of them to visit or offer help, but none have. So I just go for the company there.
hi Janni, 2015 is almost here, with a new year that will be filled with good changes for all of us. I\'m thinking your church members will see what you need and be there to help, whether it\'s just friendship or transportation. xo
Thank you - I shall try to keep a positive outlook. Happy New Year!
I see you\'ve gone thru so much and making lots of changes. 2015 is going to be a good one for you and all of us... it has to be better than 2014 :) Happy New Year Back xo
Just reading this now----and I am so very sorry. i wonder if things are now as they were and how you are getting on. We have not talked before, but I want you to know that I am here as a virtual friend---and I have found on this site that sometimes the virtual friends are the truest. You feel alone, but you are not.