first time alone
I did it, I survived being all alone for 3 hrs, I had thought i might go through some of Suzette's stuff and get some of her favorite knick-knacks for her hutch, but thought better of it all i need is to have an anxiety attack while alone for the first time. I did some girly primping, watched a little tv, then played a video game, the only one i like. Another hurddle coming next weekend, seems i just get through one and there's another right around the corner. Our yearly Lake Charles camping trip, the only trip Suzette would go on, memorial day is usually over hubby's b-day and because of that she would go with us for that one. She was not much of an outside girl and didn't like camping, but she would indure this one for her stepdad. The guys go out in the boat for the fishing and her and i hang out. It looks like my sis and family are gonna go with us, so hopefully i won't be sttuck alone against the guys. I really miss having Suzette with me against them-so to speak. Didn't sleep good last nite and feeling it this am, need to do laundry and clean house, but really want to go back to bed. Thanks again for all the love and support. luv to you all.
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I understand the out numbered feeling. Melissa helped balance that. Now it\'s just me. I hope your weekend brings you special memories. I still have a hard time going to camp and I don\'t go as much as I use too. Melissa loved going to camp and fishing. Rips my heart out to think about it. Glad you did good with your alone time. One small step for you that will make one huge one soon. Hope you get some sleep I know I have to use sleep aids now. I use to be a very good sleeper. I guess this is going to be the new normal. Take Care of U...Love and Hugs.
Being around family without your baby is hard, I understand that I miss my baby even more at family traditional holiday get togethers. Just let them all love you and don\'t be afraid to take a momoent by yourself just so you can endulge in the special moment you both shared at that celebration. know that she really will be right there with you. take care & may god bless you.
I think that it is wonderful that your sister is going with you this weekend...that WILL help you...you can do this...I am always amazed at what we can do...love to you...Karen
I\'ve always been outnumbered. I\'m happy you made it through your alone time. I actually have always liked alone time even with all this grief. It\'s my time and I don\'t have to hold it together if I don\'t want to. I hope the trip can still be enjoyable. Think happy memories of times past. You will make new memories. They won\'t be the same but can still be OK. Love Robin
I haven\'t even gotten close to touching the boy\'s stuff yet. Don\'t care, it can wait. There are so many things that happen that rips our hearts out. I\'m trying hard to change my way of thinking about this, or I\'m so darn sad that I ruin everyone else\'s good time. It\'s tough though. It seems like the rest of the world goes on, and were sitting alone, still shell-shocked, and time has stopped for us. I\'m babbling now, I\'ll stop. You just touched my heart with your words. Congrats on making it alone for a bit. Good Work! Love ya hon, Barbara