First time
Today is the first time I can be completely honest with how out of control my gambling is because I for once do not feel alone and will not be judged.I am very broken but I put a big smile on my face every day and fake the day. People ask me often how I stay in a good mood all the time when the truth is I am dying inside.I am 47 and have gambled since I was 21.It is out of control at this point I have read so many of your post tonight and I finally feel it is possible to start the battle thank you.
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I am also just starting on this journey and after a few days of clarity it becomes even more obvious how out of control your life has become due to gambling. You are not alone, there are plenty of us that are in the same place that you are now and even more that have made it further down the path and can truly smile about where they are. I will be on this site daily as it reminds me that I am not alone and can't do this alone, we all need "daily strength" to fight this disease.
"Just for today I will not gamble!" Stay strong.
Thank you for the support, yes one day at a time, sometimes it's one hour at a time. The thing for me is trying to keep busy, or not even trying to think about playing the online slots. The trouble is that verything is so easy now, you don't even have to leave the house. I'm glad be joined this group I didn't know they so many people had the sand problem as me. It's very sad to know that other people are feeling the same way as me, but also it gives me comfort knowing that you understand.
Thanks for your support I managed to not gamble today and decided when I get t my evening urge that I would just read post from all of you.So many of us have the same story,same lies,same guilt,same shame,same hope.I also told my husband today how out of control this has gotten and admitted I have lied for many years he handed it pretty good and said he with support me fully.Thanks