First journal
I'm scared, heartbroken, pregnant, and physically exausted. I love Cameron(baby daddy) and I know I want to be with him but mom and dad are dead set against it. I don't know what to do about it right now since he was just recently able to tell his mom I was pregnant and have proof of it. I want to be happy about being pregnant and I'm feeling my little guy move around all the time. I'm nervous about meeting with Cameron's family soon but I'm happy I'll have the oppertunity to talk to him again even if it's just for a short while. I'm nervous of what his mom and the rest of his family will think of me. I want them to like me and think well of me and most of all think I can be a good mother to my baby boy. I want to talk to my parents about moving on in life with Cameron by my side, but I don't want to mess anything up with my dad because he's already said that it's either him or Cameron, that I can't have both, I don't want to lose my dad but I don't want to lose Cameron either. Anyway I guess that's it, on to trying to keep my sanity.
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Hugs. Is a scary thing as you don't know how things will turn out. I hope things do work out and go well when you meet his family. The thing is to remember parents love you and most likely Dad is being protective and worried you will be hurt more down the line. You need to find out just how Cameron feels. Does he want to step up and try to make a life for the three of you? Is he ready to be a dad or pay support if you opt to keep the little guy? You will soon see just how he was brought up by how his parents react. If they are supportive and telling him to be responsible, that is a good thing. Sadly some times they are just itching for an excuse to run the other way and deny everything.
Is a big responsibility.-- and a very hard decision. Will you and he give it a go? Do you still want to raise the baby alone? (He would need to pay support, would your parents help you out ?) Or would you decide you are too young and have more you want to do that would be too difficult as a single teen and possibly give the baby up? For me it would be no issue as I have always wanted a baby but could not have one. If given that chance, I would never let the little one go For you is much harder. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kim.