first journal

This is my first time writing  about my journey, even though I've been reading and being encouraged through every one's journals for months. My husband of 35 years passed away from cancer.  We knew for only two weeks.  It came as a surprise to us, but not to God.  The final days and hours were so orchestrated by God.  I find comfort in knowing God was with my husband and us in those final hours.  He will never leave us or forsake us.  I did want to go back to work.  I do want to try to do things myself without asking for help.  I'm learning how to live this life, becoming a new me.  I was with my husband since I was 16.  Overall, I am doing ok.  Some days are still hard.  I have to remind myself to be good to myself.  I meet with a group of local younger widows for dinner every other week.  Our stories and grief are all unique.  It's great to be together where everyone understands this new journey.  Thanks to all of you for letting me listen to your journey.