First holiday
Fourth of July was never a big holiday for me, so I thought no big deal, it's not Christmas or New Years. I was so wrong. Seeing my friends post on Facebook with their family or husbands really depressed me. I'm trying so hard not to even go on Facebook but I'm addicted like a lot of people. I find myself angry and jealous of them. I miss Danny so much it makes me physically ill. I see him everywhere in our home. My friends and family say I should move but then I feel I would lose him forever. I can feel him in our house, it hurts but at least I can feel him. I'm at that stage where I am reading books/articles on speaking with deceased loved ones and or looking up mediums. I never really believed in all this stuff before but I can swear there are nights where I wake up and I can feel him lying next to me. I love him!!!
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Gosh, you are so fortunate to feel your Danny lying next too you! Every night, I say to Anthony, \"if only I could Just see you\". Sometimes I feel a soft breeze blowing on my cheek. Anthony passed away on my side of the bed. I so hope that it is him softly blowing ...
I visited a medium and taped the entire message given. Every night, I press play and fall asleep listening. Fortunately, I was raised a Spiritual Person so it was not out of the ordinary for me to approach a medium. It definitely gave me peace, knowing that Anthony is alright. That he is with me and worries about me being alone.
As for FakeBook, it is seriously the worst place to visit when down!!!!
Last night I went out for the first time with a friend of mine. The evening was a lot of fun, but even though I was smiling, the joy just was not there. I kept thinking about Anthony and how much I missed having him next me. How much my life has changed.
I spend most of my time at home. It is truly a bitter sweet feeling, because our home was where we were happy. Now it\'s empty and lonely. I know I will have to sell it, as I cannot afford to keep it but it is all I have left of him. Everything else I had to give to his family.
Yeah, I love Anthony too!!!! And I know he loves me ....
Last night was the first real dream that I remember where Danny was there. We only had a few moments but I knew it was him and I knew he was a spirit coming to comfort me. Danny was always worried if he passed first what I would do. Well I\'m surviving like everyone else. I hope I get another dream so we can say to each other how much I will love and miss him forever. I would love to know how the medium made you feel. I\'m very skeptical because with Facebook they could look up anything.