First Father's Day without John
I had been feeling really bad on Thursday and Friday, blood pressure was 141/109 normally mine is low. Got scared when I got a headache and couldn't see out my eye, I went to the Dr. he thinks it is just stress. My boss seems to think reality finally sunk in and he said the good news is when you hit rock bottom there is only one place to go and that is up. Well I took half a day off Friday and went to Lafayette with my daughter so I could go spend the weekend with my son and daughter-in-law. They took me eat out on Friday still had the headache. Woke up Saturday morning feeling better, went shopping all day. Then they took me to the Hibachi Grill and it was awesome. John would have loved it and I know he was there since our Chef kept dropping everything we laughed till we were almost crying it was so funny. Then my kids said Mom we have one more surprise for you, they took me to the Daiquiri Shop and played shuffle board. We had a blast something I have never done before much less go to a bar. Sunday was spend at my son's in-laws around the pool playing volleyball in the pool with the kids. I cried a tear or two knowing how much he would have loved to have been there. When it was time to leave I saw his truck it had been behind the tree the whole time I just hadn't noticed it. Great way to end a beautiful day. You see my son, Chad his in-laws have a farm and they have offered to keep John's truck on the farm so whenever Chad wants he can use it. So everyone is talking about Mr. John's truck how it goes here and it goes there and they bring their grandkids to the back of the farm in it. So to all Father's and Grandfathers I hope ya'll all had as Great of a Day as I did, but I sure do Miss my Dad and John! My kids and extended family in laws sure did make sure me and Kristy weren't alone for our First Father's Day without John. Here's to you John, I know you had a Great Father's Day as this is your First Father's Day with your first born son, Joshua. Until we meet again, I will always Love you! Andree'
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I hope your fathers day was ok. It was nice you were able to spend it with your daughter. This was the first one without my husband, my daughter took it pretty hard (16). I hope you get to feeling better, hon.
Quite the interesting analogy from your boss, IMO. I had to read that over and over and wonder if he/she was a widow. My thoughts were no because a widow(er) would have probably never said that to you. I don\'t know maybe what you see on black and white isn\'t really the way things happen in true color...? I look back in the beginning stages of my grief journey & I too experienced physical problems, I have epilepsy & it sparked a few seizures for me, & I was eventually treated for depression. I am glad to say I am seeing clearer now. And sooner or later we walk a little less wobbly day by day and hang on to what we can. We do emerge out of the darkness and start to see the light little by little we start to appreciate the things we didn\'t & see things we had no idea was there. Two steps forward sometimes three steps back but we survive. We cant ever forget we are human & there is no manual, guide, or book for this, \"grief\"...& what we have just lived through it turns into our own journey. It forever changes us, hopefully for the good.
~Christine
Hi Andree\'. Sounds like you were treated to a wonderful weekend. It\'s heartwarming that your family had a lot planned to keep you busy and happy. My 2 sons were here, watched the US Open with me and cooked me a great steak. Made things seem bearable. Hugs, Kip.