FIRST ENTRY

  HELLO SELF AND FRIENDS.....I MUST BEGIN TO USE THIS SITE AND GET TO KNOW SOME OF YOU AS I AM LOST  AND ALONE WITH MOST ISSUES OUT HERE AND I UNDERSTAND JUST WRITING WILL HELP, BUT EVEN BETTER ,SOME REAL COMMUNICATION WITH OTHERS WHO MAY HAVE SIMILAR PHYSICAL ISSUES AND THEN POSSIBILITIES YOU MAY ENDURE SIMILAR CONSEQUENCES IN ENVIRONMENT AND RELATIONSHIPS AS IT WILL BEGIN TO HELP ME NOT FEEL SO LOST OR ALONE.   I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO LIVE CHATS SO I CAN HAVE THAT IMMEDIATE GRATIFICATION OF COMMISERATION WITH SOMEONE WHO'S LIFE EXPERIENCES ARE SIMILAR TO MINE ...  I NOTICED THAT HAVING TO WAIT FOR SOME ONE TO READ MY BLURBS LATER HAS KEPT ME FEELING DISTANT FROM OTHERS AND ISOLATION IS JUST SUFFOCATING ME FOR TOO LONG NOW... IT'S TURNED INTO AN ABUSIVE EXPERIECE RATHER THAN A HEALING QUIET, REFLECTIVE  TIME FOR SELF.  MY FIRST ENTRIES MAY ALSO BE FILLED WITH MORE PROBLEM THAN SOLUTION AS I GET 5 YRS OF EXPERIENCE OFF MY SHOULDERS.  I AM NOT A PERSON WHO REMAINS IN THE PROBLEM LONG AND I SEE THE WORLD WITH LOVE AND LIGHT MOST MINUTES OF MOST DAYS. SO PLEASE DO NOT GET THE WRONG IDEA AS YOU READ THROUGH MY HELL THE FIRST LITTLE WHILE. THERE... IT'S TIME TO LIE DOWN AND RELIEVE PRESSURE AND PAIN NOW .