first entry

I am new to ds and hope this can help my recovery. My focus for this entry will be more towards my addiction. I started using when I was 19 with a now ex boyfriend. It did not take long for me to be hooked. I always thought I could stop at any time but it quickly took over my life. I have overdosed before and been in rehab a total of three times. I want that third to be the last. I am proud of myself for staying clean since january 18 but its very hard to adjust to not having the one thing that I relied on most. I no longer have any friends because I messed it up when on drugs or they are still users. I want to get better but I need more support than my sponsor and meetings which is why I am here. I know that I have been through a lot in my life but I want to be a success story and not the failure I have been for years now.