FIREPROOF
I GOT MY BABY BACK BABY BACK BABY BACK
I GOT MY BABY BACK BABY BACK BABY BACK
I GOT MY BABY BACK BABY BACK BABY BACK
NO, THIS IS NOT AN AD FOR CHILI'S, BUT IT IS A SONG THAT IS ON MY HEART THAT IS FILLED WITH PRAISE TO MY LORD, JESUS CHRIST. MY INCREDIBLY BEAUTIFUL AND LOVELY WIFE HAS MADE IT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AFTER NEARLY THREE STRAIGHT WEEKS BEING LOCKED UP IN SOMEONE ELSES CARE. SHE HAD A HORRIBLE REACTION TO THE ANTIDEPRESSANT THAT SHE JUST STARTED TAKING AS WELL AS REACTING TO ALL THE MIND-THROBBING STRESS THAT I CAUSED IN ATTACKING HER MOTHER AND BEING SELFISH WITH NOT LETTING GO OF MY PRIZE-POSSESSION CAR THAT I COULDN'T AFFORD. THOSE ARE THE ROLES THAT I PLAYED, AND THERE WERE OTHERS WHO PLAYED A MAJOR ROLE, BUT IT'S JUST NOT MY PLACE TO BLAME OTHERS. I HAVE TO ADMIT AND WORK ON THE THINGS THAT I HAVE DONE, AND AS FOR THE OTHERS, IT'S UP TO THEM IF THEY WANT TO DO THE SAME. LIKE I SAID, I HAVE TO FOCUS ON MY PART AND IT'S NOT MY PLACE TO FOCUS ON WHAT OTHERS DID AS WELL TO CAUSE ALL THIS.
SINCE THIS ALL WENT DOWN, I HAVE MADE SOME OF THE NECESSARY STEPS, BUT THAT'S NOT WHY I'M WRITING TODAY. I'M HERE TO THANK YOU ALL FOR ALL OF YOUR PRAYERS FOR MY WIFE AND OUR FAMILY. I'M HERE TO GIVE HONOR AND PRAISE TO MY LORD, JESUS CHRIST. HE HAS DONE SO MUCH IN MY HEART OVER THE LAST 3 WEEKS THAT I AM JUST AMAZED AT THE POWER OF HIS GLORY TO DO SUCH A TREMENDOUS WORK IN SUCH A WRETCHED SINNER'S LIFE. OVER THE LAST 3 WEEKS, I HAD TO ADMIT THAT THERE WAS A WHOLE LOT OF EVIL AND HATRED IN MY HEART, AND I HAD TO OPEN MYSELF UP FOR HEART SURGERY, SO THE LORD COULD CUT OUT SOME OF THE BLACK, DEAD AREAS OF MY WRETCHED HEART AND MAKE IT WHOLE AGAIN, SO I COULD THEN COME TO THIS DAY TO MAKE EVERY EFFORT TO MAKE THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE FEEL SAFE AGAIN AND ASSURE HER THAT WE WOULD TAKE EVERY STEP IT TOOK TO TRULY MAKE OUR MARRIAGE FIREPROOF. LORD KNOWS THAT WE JUST WENT THROUGH A 3 ALARM BLAZING INFERNO, AND ALL THOSE THAT WERE INVOLVED WERE VERY BADLY BURNED, AND ALL NEEDED SKIN-GRAPHS TO REPAIR OUR HEARTS FROM THE DAMAGE THAT THE FIRE CAUSED.
WELL, JUST BEFORE NOON YESTURDAY, MY SON AND I PICKED UP DANIELLE FROM THE HOSPITAL, AND THEN WE WENT BACK TO OUR PLACE AND WE JUST SAT ON THE COUCH AND CUDDLED FOR A FEW HOURS. IT WAS SUCH A BLESSING AND FELT SO GOOD TO HAVE MY WIFE BACK IN THE PLACE WHERE SHE BELONGS, RIGHT HERE IN MY ARMS. TEARS WERE JUST STREAMING DOWN MY FACE FOR THIS PRAYER TO FINALLY BE ANSWERED BY THE LORD. THE HALF-DOZEN MEDS THAT SHE IS NOW ON ARE REALLY KICKING HER ASS RIGHT NOW, SO SHE TOOK A LITTLE NAP IN HER BED THAT I KNOW HAD TO FEEL SO GOOD TO HER TO FINALLY BE BACK ON HER SLEEP NUMBER INSTEAD OF SOME UNCOMFORTABLE HOSPITAL BED. I KICKED BACK NEXT TO HER WHILE HOLDING HER HAND, STROKING HER HEAD, AND QUIETLY WATCHING TV WHILE SHE RESTED IN THE ABSOLUTE PEACE OF KNOWING THAT SHE IS FINALLY HOME. THE PEACE AND THE SUBTLE SMILE THAT WAS ON HER FACE WHILE SHE WAS RESTING WAS INDESCRIBEABLE. SHE JUST LOOKED SO COMFORTABLE LIKE SHE HAD BEEN SEARCHING FOR COMFORT FOR MONTHS AND MONTHS, AND TODAY WAS THE DAY THAT SHE FINALLY FOUND WHAT SHE WAS LOOKING FOR. IT WAS COMPLETELY AWESOME TO GET TO SEE THAT. AFTER SHE WAS SLEEPING FOR A WHILE, I GOT UP AND STARTED BAKING SOME TOQUITOS FOR IF SHE WAS HUNGERY WHEN SHE WOKE UP BECAUSE I KNEW SHE DIDN'T GET TO HAVE ANY LUNCH YET. SHE WAS A LITTLE SHOCKED WHEN SHE WOKE UP AND SAW ME PULLING TOQUITOS OUT OF THE OVEN, BUT I COULD TELL SHE WAS GRATEFUL, LIKE I READ HER MIND THAT SHE'S BEEN DYING FOR SOME CRISPY TOQUITOS AND SOME SOUR CREAM TO DIP THOSE TENDER MORSELS OF CRUNCHY GOODNESS. DEUCE'S MOM GOT OFF A LITTLE EARLY FROM WORK TO PICK HIM UP BECAUSE SHE KNEW THAT DANIELLE WAS GETTING OUT TODAY, AND SHE WANTED TO GIVE US SOME EXTRA ALONE TIME, SO I WAS GRATEFUL FOR HER KIND AND THOUGHTFUL GESTURE.
ON TO THE MOVIES...
I HAD MADE PLANS FOR THE FIRST NIGHT THAT SHE GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL THAT WE WOULD GO TO THE MOVIES THAT NIGHT AND SEE THE MOVIE THAT JUST CAME OUT CALLED "FIREPROOF." I HAD HEARD THAT IT CAME FROM THE SAME FILM MAKERS THAT MADE "FACING THE GIANTS," AND I KNEW THAT WE BOTH ADORED THAT MOVIE, SO I FIGURED WE WOULD GIVE THIS ONE A SHOT, NOT FULLY KNOWING WHAT IT WAS ABOUT. WELL, IT WAS INCREDIBLE, AND WE COULD NOT HAVE SEEN IT AT A MORE PERFECT TIME IN OUR LIVES. IT WAS ABOUT THIS MARRIAGE THAT WAS BROKEN AND FALLING APART, AND HOW THEY MADE EVERY EFFORT TO FINALLY RENEW THEIR LOVE THAT THEY ONCE HAD FOR EACH OTHER BY THE END OF THE FILM. THAT MOVIE SPOKE INTO OUR LIVES IN WAYS THAT I COULD NEVER IMAGINE THAT IT EVER COULD. IT FELT LIKE I WAS WATCHING MY MARRIAGE RIGHT THERE ON THE BIG SCREEN ONLY IT WAS FROM THE OUTSIDE, IN, AND NOT THE WAY WE USUALLY SEE IT WHICH IS FROM THE INSIDE, OUT. ONCE AGAIN, MY DISGUSTING ACTIONS CAME RIGHT OUT THERE AND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE AGAIN AS THE HUSBAND WAS IN A FIT OF RAGE AND WAS OUTSIDE WITH A BASEBALL BAT SWINGING AWAY, ONLY IN HIS CASE, HE WAS BEATING THE SHIT OUT OF A...GARBAGE CAN,(WISE MAN) AND TO GET RID OF HIS COMPUTER THAT HE USED TO WATCH PORN, HE THEN DESTROYED IT AS WELL WITH HIS WEAPON OF CHOICE WHICH, YES, WAS A BASEBALL BAT. BOY, DID I LEARN A PAINFUL LESSON LAST NIGHT THAT ONCE AGAIN COMFIRMS THAT I MUST NOT EVER AGAIN BATTLE AGAINST FLESH AND BLOOD, AND THAT THE BATTLE IS NOT MINE, BUT THE BATTLE MUST BELONG TO THE LORD.
AFTER THE MOVIE WAS OVER, AND THE POPCORN WAS EATEN, AND THE SODA WAS DRANK AND THE TEARS WERE DRIED, WE WENT HOME AND TOOK A WALK TO OUR PARK OF PEACE. WE WALKED AND TALKED FOR ONE LAP, AND THEN SAT AT A BENCH IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PARK AND TALKED SOME MORE. WE WERE REALLY ABLE TO WORK A WHOLE LOT OF SHIT OUT LAST NIGHT, AND IT WAS JUST TOTALLY AWESOME AND I COULD FEEL THE LORD'S LOVE RAINING DOWN TO HEAL OUR RELATIONSHIP MORE THAN I COULD EVER FEEL IT BEFORE. WE CAME HOME, AND CAME TOGETHER STRONGER THAN WE EVER HAD BEFORE, IT WAS BREATHTAKINGLY AMAZING. IT WAS OBVIOUS TO BOTH OF US THAT WE GREATLY MISSED EACH OTHER OVER THE LAST 3 WEEKS AND COULDN'T WAIT FOR THIS TIME FOR US TO BE TOGETHER TO ACTUALLY HAPPEN. I CAN'T EVEN DESRIBE HOW FORFILLING OUR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER IS NOW. IT IS JUST AMAZING HOW GOOD GOD IS. I COULDN'T EVER IMAGINE HOW MUCH CLOSER OUR MARRIAGE BECAME IS SUCH A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME THANKS TO THE AMAZING GRACE OF OUR LOVING SAVIOR WHO IS NOW FOR THE FIRST TIME A REALLY VITAL PART OF OUR RELATIONSHIP. OUR RELATIONSHIP IS STILL A LOVE TRIANGLE, BUT INSTEAD OF A VERY UNHEALTHY ONE THAT LEAD TO ABSOLUTE DESTRUCTION, IT IS NOW A BLESSED LOVE TRIANGLE THAT IS STRICTLY BETWEEN DANIELLE, MYSELF, AND OUR LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST. IT'S ABOUT TIME, AND I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER THAT WE BOTH NOW HAVE A TRUSTED AND REAL LIFE FIRE ESCAPE THAT WILL TRULY AND FOREVER MORE KEEP OUR MARRIAGE...
FIREPROOF
THANK YOU JESUS. WE LOVE YOU.
I GOT MY BABY BACK BABY BACK BABY BACK
I GOT MY BABY BACK BABY BACK BABY BACK
NO, THIS IS NOT AN AD FOR CHILI'S, BUT IT IS A SONG THAT IS ON MY HEART THAT IS FILLED WITH PRAISE TO MY LORD, JESUS CHRIST. MY INCREDIBLY BEAUTIFUL AND LOVELY WIFE HAS MADE IT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AFTER NEARLY THREE STRAIGHT WEEKS BEING LOCKED UP IN SOMEONE ELSES CARE. SHE HAD A HORRIBLE REACTION TO THE ANTIDEPRESSANT THAT SHE JUST STARTED TAKING AS WELL AS REACTING TO ALL THE MIND-THROBBING STRESS THAT I CAUSED IN ATTACKING HER MOTHER AND BEING SELFISH WITH NOT LETTING GO OF MY PRIZE-POSSESSION CAR THAT I COULDN'T AFFORD. THOSE ARE THE ROLES THAT I PLAYED, AND THERE WERE OTHERS WHO PLAYED A MAJOR ROLE, BUT IT'S JUST NOT MY PLACE TO BLAME OTHERS. I HAVE TO ADMIT AND WORK ON THE THINGS THAT I HAVE DONE, AND AS FOR THE OTHERS, IT'S UP TO THEM IF THEY WANT TO DO THE SAME. LIKE I SAID, I HAVE TO FOCUS ON MY PART AND IT'S NOT MY PLACE TO FOCUS ON WHAT OTHERS DID AS WELL TO CAUSE ALL THIS.
SINCE THIS ALL WENT DOWN, I HAVE MADE SOME OF THE NECESSARY STEPS, BUT THAT'S NOT WHY I'M WRITING TODAY. I'M HERE TO THANK YOU ALL FOR ALL OF YOUR PRAYERS FOR MY WIFE AND OUR FAMILY. I'M HERE TO GIVE HONOR AND PRAISE TO MY LORD, JESUS CHRIST. HE HAS DONE SO MUCH IN MY HEART OVER THE LAST 3 WEEKS THAT I AM JUST AMAZED AT THE POWER OF HIS GLORY TO DO SUCH A TREMENDOUS WORK IN SUCH A WRETCHED SINNER'S LIFE. OVER THE LAST 3 WEEKS, I HAD TO ADMIT THAT THERE WAS A WHOLE LOT OF EVIL AND HATRED IN MY HEART, AND I HAD TO OPEN MYSELF UP FOR HEART SURGERY, SO THE LORD COULD CUT OUT SOME OF THE BLACK, DEAD AREAS OF MY WRETCHED HEART AND MAKE IT WHOLE AGAIN, SO I COULD THEN COME TO THIS DAY TO MAKE EVERY EFFORT TO MAKE THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE FEEL SAFE AGAIN AND ASSURE HER THAT WE WOULD TAKE EVERY STEP IT TOOK TO TRULY MAKE OUR MARRIAGE FIREPROOF. LORD KNOWS THAT WE JUST WENT THROUGH A 3 ALARM BLAZING INFERNO, AND ALL THOSE THAT WERE INVOLVED WERE VERY BADLY BURNED, AND ALL NEEDED SKIN-GRAPHS TO REPAIR OUR HEARTS FROM THE DAMAGE THAT THE FIRE CAUSED.
WELL, JUST BEFORE NOON YESTURDAY, MY SON AND I PICKED UP DANIELLE FROM THE HOSPITAL, AND THEN WE WENT BACK TO OUR PLACE AND WE JUST SAT ON THE COUCH AND CUDDLED FOR A FEW HOURS. IT WAS SUCH A BLESSING AND FELT SO GOOD TO HAVE MY WIFE BACK IN THE PLACE WHERE SHE BELONGS, RIGHT HERE IN MY ARMS. TEARS WERE JUST STREAMING DOWN MY FACE FOR THIS PRAYER TO FINALLY BE ANSWERED BY THE LORD. THE HALF-DOZEN MEDS THAT SHE IS NOW ON ARE REALLY KICKING HER ASS RIGHT NOW, SO SHE TOOK A LITTLE NAP IN HER BED THAT I KNOW HAD TO FEEL SO GOOD TO HER TO FINALLY BE BACK ON HER SLEEP NUMBER INSTEAD OF SOME UNCOMFORTABLE HOSPITAL BED. I KICKED BACK NEXT TO HER WHILE HOLDING HER HAND, STROKING HER HEAD, AND QUIETLY WATCHING TV WHILE SHE RESTED IN THE ABSOLUTE PEACE OF KNOWING THAT SHE IS FINALLY HOME. THE PEACE AND THE SUBTLE SMILE THAT WAS ON HER FACE WHILE SHE WAS RESTING WAS INDESCRIBEABLE. SHE JUST LOOKED SO COMFORTABLE LIKE SHE HAD BEEN SEARCHING FOR COMFORT FOR MONTHS AND MONTHS, AND TODAY WAS THE DAY THAT SHE FINALLY FOUND WHAT SHE WAS LOOKING FOR. IT WAS COMPLETELY AWESOME TO GET TO SEE THAT. AFTER SHE WAS SLEEPING FOR A WHILE, I GOT UP AND STARTED BAKING SOME TOQUITOS FOR IF SHE WAS HUNGERY WHEN SHE WOKE UP BECAUSE I KNEW SHE DIDN'T GET TO HAVE ANY LUNCH YET. SHE WAS A LITTLE SHOCKED WHEN SHE WOKE UP AND SAW ME PULLING TOQUITOS OUT OF THE OVEN, BUT I COULD TELL SHE WAS GRATEFUL, LIKE I READ HER MIND THAT SHE'S BEEN DYING FOR SOME CRISPY TOQUITOS AND SOME SOUR CREAM TO DIP THOSE TENDER MORSELS OF CRUNCHY GOODNESS. DEUCE'S MOM GOT OFF A LITTLE EARLY FROM WORK TO PICK HIM UP BECAUSE SHE KNEW THAT DANIELLE WAS GETTING OUT TODAY, AND SHE WANTED TO GIVE US SOME EXTRA ALONE TIME, SO I WAS GRATEFUL FOR HER KIND AND THOUGHTFUL GESTURE.
ON TO THE MOVIES...
I HAD MADE PLANS FOR THE FIRST NIGHT THAT SHE GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL THAT WE WOULD GO TO THE MOVIES THAT NIGHT AND SEE THE MOVIE THAT JUST CAME OUT CALLED "FIREPROOF." I HAD HEARD THAT IT CAME FROM THE SAME FILM MAKERS THAT MADE "FACING THE GIANTS," AND I KNEW THAT WE BOTH ADORED THAT MOVIE, SO I FIGURED WE WOULD GIVE THIS ONE A SHOT, NOT FULLY KNOWING WHAT IT WAS ABOUT. WELL, IT WAS INCREDIBLE, AND WE COULD NOT HAVE SEEN IT AT A MORE PERFECT TIME IN OUR LIVES. IT WAS ABOUT THIS MARRIAGE THAT WAS BROKEN AND FALLING APART, AND HOW THEY MADE EVERY EFFORT TO FINALLY RENEW THEIR LOVE THAT THEY ONCE HAD FOR EACH OTHER BY THE END OF THE FILM. THAT MOVIE SPOKE INTO OUR LIVES IN WAYS THAT I COULD NEVER IMAGINE THAT IT EVER COULD. IT FELT LIKE I WAS WATCHING MY MARRIAGE RIGHT THERE ON THE BIG SCREEN ONLY IT WAS FROM THE OUTSIDE, IN, AND NOT THE WAY WE USUALLY SEE IT WHICH IS FROM THE INSIDE, OUT. ONCE AGAIN, MY DISGUSTING ACTIONS CAME RIGHT OUT THERE AND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE AGAIN AS THE HUSBAND WAS IN A FIT OF RAGE AND WAS OUTSIDE WITH A BASEBALL BAT SWINGING AWAY, ONLY IN HIS CASE, HE WAS BEATING THE SHIT OUT OF A...GARBAGE CAN,(WISE MAN) AND TO GET RID OF HIS COMPUTER THAT HE USED TO WATCH PORN, HE THEN DESTROYED IT AS WELL WITH HIS WEAPON OF CHOICE WHICH, YES, WAS A BASEBALL BAT. BOY, DID I LEARN A PAINFUL LESSON LAST NIGHT THAT ONCE AGAIN COMFIRMS THAT I MUST NOT EVER AGAIN BATTLE AGAINST FLESH AND BLOOD, AND THAT THE BATTLE IS NOT MINE, BUT THE BATTLE MUST BELONG TO THE LORD.
AFTER THE MOVIE WAS OVER, AND THE POPCORN WAS EATEN, AND THE SODA WAS DRANK AND THE TEARS WERE DRIED, WE WENT HOME AND TOOK A WALK TO OUR PARK OF PEACE. WE WALKED AND TALKED FOR ONE LAP, AND THEN SAT AT A BENCH IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PARK AND TALKED SOME MORE. WE WERE REALLY ABLE TO WORK A WHOLE LOT OF SHIT OUT LAST NIGHT, AND IT WAS JUST TOTALLY AWESOME AND I COULD FEEL THE LORD'S LOVE RAINING DOWN TO HEAL OUR RELATIONSHIP MORE THAN I COULD EVER FEEL IT BEFORE. WE CAME HOME, AND CAME TOGETHER STRONGER THAN WE EVER HAD BEFORE, IT WAS BREATHTAKINGLY AMAZING. IT WAS OBVIOUS TO BOTH OF US THAT WE GREATLY MISSED EACH OTHER OVER THE LAST 3 WEEKS AND COULDN'T WAIT FOR THIS TIME FOR US TO BE TOGETHER TO ACTUALLY HAPPEN. I CAN'T EVEN DESRIBE HOW FORFILLING OUR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER IS NOW. IT IS JUST AMAZING HOW GOOD GOD IS. I COULDN'T EVER IMAGINE HOW MUCH CLOSER OUR MARRIAGE BECAME IS SUCH A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME THANKS TO THE AMAZING GRACE OF OUR LOVING SAVIOR WHO IS NOW FOR THE FIRST TIME A REALLY VITAL PART OF OUR RELATIONSHIP. OUR RELATIONSHIP IS STILL A LOVE TRIANGLE, BUT INSTEAD OF A VERY UNHEALTHY ONE THAT LEAD TO ABSOLUTE DESTRUCTION, IT IS NOW A BLESSED LOVE TRIANGLE THAT IS STRICTLY BETWEEN DANIELLE, MYSELF, AND OUR LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST. IT'S ABOUT TIME, AND I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER THAT WE BOTH NOW HAVE A TRUSTED AND REAL LIFE FIRE ESCAPE THAT WILL TRULY AND FOREVER MORE KEEP OUR MARRIAGE...
FIREPROOF
THANK YOU JESUS. WE LOVE YOU.
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glad she is home hun God bless and take care of yourself
Awww, this just warms my heart. I am so glad you all are in a better place. I have been praying so hard for the both of you!
I am proud one, for the changes you realized you need to make. I am proud of you for taking care of your wife and being there for her. That takes a big man Rob.
And I\'m so proud of her for knowing she needed help and getting it!
I love you all so much, and I want to see you all work. Congrats! I hope the happiness sticks around!