Fire arm retrieval...

I'm trying to get my gun back that I turned in couple months ago; I have some unfinished business...it was my security blanket, my one-way ticket outa here!
It's amazing how close to the edge I am that something/anything can cause a spontaneous reaction and send me spiralling downward...I'm currently sitting on the edge of a cliff and I can feel myself swaying in the breeze with my eyes closed...