Fine line
Well today I found out that my H has been on all these mail order medication
Testosterone and diet pills and supplements all from some crazy website and he got a local doctor to give him addipex (he does not need he is hot) there is no telling how chemically off balances he is .....
i didn’t tell him I know
he is already pushing for attorney visit after 2 1/2 weeks
I’m in a falling abyss, all this your strong and the kids need you and I’m over here like I can’t freaking breathe!!!!!! It’s a fine line between love and hate right ?
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A fine line I could follow and watch for. The line between my love and hate is fuzzy, jaggy and ever shifting.
Smart move not letting H know you know about his chemical cocktails. Sounds like you already have plenty to worry about. That one is *his* to sort.
Ugh. Does he have a reason to take the testosterone ?? My H has been on weekly shots for years due to high PSA levels and what not. He is under a drs care tho. He started having erectile dysfunction about a year ago (blames that on me ... not attracted to me anymore ) yeah ok ... I’m sorry he is pushing for attorney visit. I feel your pain I truly do. Some days I just want to drive my car over a cliff or something. I cry in the car going to work .. sometimes during work and on the way home. I don’t know how there are any tears left :(. We have to stay strong for our children. Sometimes I hate even saying that bc WHAT ABOUT US !!! I feel like shaking my H and telling him to wake The F UP And work on trying to keep us together. But it’s like talking to no one. A tiny piece of me still holds onto hope that “one day “ he will want me back. How pathetic do I sound !!!! Ugh. Sorry about my rant. Wish I had the right words to say to you to make you feel better. I dream of winning a big lottery (as if that will happen ) so I can at least buy H out of the house and say get out now !! But I really don’t want him to leave. My son doesnt want him to leave. So here we are