Finding Motivation in a dark world
where I am right now in life is a place I never imagined I would be. If I had known this when I graduated high school I would have done soooo many things diferently. I wouldn't have ate the shit that I did. I would have treated people better. I wouldn't have drank away my first college attempt. I would have done more of the things that I can't do now. Anyways, I've spent enough time living in the past. My main worry and concern right now is my future. I just want some kind of conformation that everything will be okay. I don't know what I'm going to do about college, yet alone life. Then there's my debt. . . holy shit my debt. On top of this, I wonder about dating and the possibility and marriage. It's hard to find somebody too date when you have a six inch "spickett" sticking out of your stomach. Then there's dealing with my condition in general. I'm sure there's somebody out there for me, I just wish they would show up sooner than later. I can only wonder and pray that what my future brings will be positive and won't be nothing but sitting in a lazy boy all day reading Wine Spectator and Cigar Aficianado. . .