Financial stability
Oh Roger all my life I have been financially stable, never super rich, at times doing quite well. I gave up my career for you, and you left me very unstable financially. Its at a time in my life finding a way up is extra hard. I can not go back to my career at this age, first of all no jobs there anyway - second of all my age is against me.
So I called your friend Pastor Ed, cried, told him how scared I have been, worried, upset etc. CLUELESS. For Gods sake he is a pastor, he hardly could say anything, yeah he prayed for me after appearing very uncomfortable and clueless.
I truly worked my &^%# ASS off getting this place up to sellable part - you could have done more but frankly my dear you were RE Tired. I am sick of this place, sick of working on it, sick of spending money on it, and sick of worrying about coming out with enough to keep my head above water. Going back to college at age 38, and finishing later in life was my dream, I never once thought I would met you or anyone - I did, but I did not think the long term consequences through with you being older....I wished I had looked more towards what if's now. I tried you pushed me away said oh I ain't going no where my dad lived to be 96. Reversed you almost made it. I told Pastor Ed "where is GOD, is he there, he answered we might not like what he has in store but if I lose everything thats is what he wants for me, I said so if I am homeless thats Gods will eh? I just shook my head" I am fighting trying to believe I will be ok - I am all alone in this - everyone busy with their lives etc....so Please if you are up in heaven go see my guardian angels tell them I need a break, ok.
So I called your friend Pastor Ed, cried, told him how scared I have been, worried, upset etc. CLUELESS. For Gods sake he is a pastor, he hardly could say anything, yeah he prayed for me after appearing very uncomfortable and clueless.
I truly worked my &^%# ASS off getting this place up to sellable part - you could have done more but frankly my dear you were RE Tired. I am sick of this place, sick of working on it, sick of spending money on it, and sick of worrying about coming out with enough to keep my head above water. Going back to college at age 38, and finishing later in life was my dream, I never once thought I would met you or anyone - I did, but I did not think the long term consequences through with you being older....I wished I had looked more towards what if's now. I tried you pushed me away said oh I ain't going no where my dad lived to be 96. Reversed you almost made it. I told Pastor Ed "where is GOD, is he there, he answered we might not like what he has in store but if I lose everything thats is what he wants for me, I said so if I am homeless thats Gods will eh? I just shook my head" I am fighting trying to believe I will be ok - I am all alone in this - everyone busy with their lives etc....so Please if you are up in heaven go see my guardian angels tell them I need a break, ok.
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