Finally made it back to reality
After may months of on and off the wagon I finally made it back to sobriety. I have been having a real hard time being on disabality after working for 40 years. I am 58 and will not work again. Pretty big reality shock.
After almost a year of feeling sorry for myself I finally decided to get off the pity pot and accept things as they are.
It has been a week since I drank last and had 2 tests placed before me. Test 1 was when I was cleaning out my garage and found one of my hidden stashes of Vodka. It was a turning point for me and I decided to pour it out.
Test 2 was when my wife gave me some money to go to the hardware store. Normally I would have taken my share for booze but I didn't.
I realize that I am not cured but have to remain on watch. I guess that is a little growth.
After almost a year of feeling sorry for myself I finally decided to get off the pity pot and accept things as they are.
It has been a week since I drank last and had 2 tests placed before me. Test 1 was when I was cleaning out my garage and found one of my hidden stashes of Vodka. It was a turning point for me and I decided to pour it out.
Test 2 was when my wife gave me some money to go to the hardware store. Normally I would have taken my share for booze but I didn't.
I realize that I am not cured but have to remain on watch. I guess that is a little growth.
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You can do it! My son was a crack addict for 21 years, and turned it over to the Lord 8 1/2 years ago. He\'s gone on to have a successful career, married, and has four beautiful children. All things are possible!!!!
I can relate to your feelings about the reality of going on disability. I was a drunk for many years .Got sober ,started my own business got married did all the things I never thought possible. Then I had a massive heart attack.Damn near died. I had a heart transplant in 07.My career was gone. I have been going to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings for 27 years now. I found that even though I couldn\'t work I could help other alcoholics achieve sobriety. That has been as rewarding as anything I have ever done. God has a plan for everyone, consider asking for guidance and start going to AA meetings, Whats the worst that could happen. Greg
I am a Vietnam Vet also and went to my Psychologist yesterday and they suggested that I volunteer to help other vet\'s suffering from alcoholism and PTSD. I went on a 40 year binge not being able to cope with the past. I am almost a year sober and doing well. The AA meetings here are populated by Hippocrates and those forced to be there. Hope all is well, Greg H.