Final Goodbye
Joe and I said our final goodbyes today. I came home and tried calling my "best" friend. She never answers.
I decided to change my telephone number and just let Joe Rvs memory die away. Ill finally bury the bracelet he gave me in the backyard. Ill mourn him. And have decided Ill never ever get married. Once I make my mind up I dont go back on it. I also deleted my so called best friends number. There is no way she'll ever be able to reach me and knowing her she'll move on quick.
I gave my new number to my brother and boss as well as Roomie and good friend in Wisconsin whom has never ever let me down.
I am not sure where to go from here. I wanted so badly to go to church on Sunday even though Im not religious but in tough times church always made me feel better. I cant even do that. Im jusst not sure what to do or how to move forward. I will warn you...im going to be journaling alot about this loss...so...i know Im gonna sound like a broken record...please be patient.
Continuely a mess....
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Life do get messy, Pecos Sage. . .
Good thing Nature gave us wash and wear birthday suits, huh?
No promises on the patience, though. I reserve the right to use the power of my mighty mouse to surf on at will. Violins hurt my ears, especially when they are playing romantic appoggiatura. Not to worry, though. Once a sister-in-healing, always a sister-in-healing, whether we currently have no patience for one another or knot.
Continued support while you sort.
Thanks for honesty Arfie;)
No need to apologize, that's what ds and all of us are here for. No one will pass judgement on you, I am sure.
hugs