Fighting Trich?

This is one of the hardest things ive ever done. I started pulling when i was 13. I remember the very first day so clearly. Its permamently etched in my brain. I was in the car, and my two sisters said something about the roots in your hair. I pulled a strand out and we all examined it. But i began to notice after that that i couldnt stop. I couldnt. It was an escape. I was adopted. Best thing to ever happen to me. I came into contact with my birthfather when i was 13. Its been 6 years. 6 long years of dealing with this. Six years of hiding, and being afraid to swim or do the things that i want to do so badly. Trichotillomania has ruined my life. Well, Ive ruined it i guess. this was all me. True , my rough circumstances didnt help. In fact, they triggered it. but this was me. 

Ive struggled with my self confidence for years and years and years. My ex cheated on me with my younger sister this past year, and my trich has gotten so bad since then that i want it to end. I want to be done with this. But i dont know how. Someone suggested this site, so tada. here i am. Here i am. Here i am.