Fighting not to go backwards
I feel like i have been making giant steps towards recovery recently, i have now tackled every food that i wouldnt eat, i have been slowly working on eating all the foods my ed stopped me from eating since about september and i have now managed them all and am learning to enjoy food. Although i sometimes still get anxious when it comes to eating foods that arent so familiar i feel i have made progress. But now i am very anxious as i am going home tomorrow to my family home, i have fought ed so much here and come so far, and i am terrified of going backwards when i go home as it is a place that clearly holds triggers for me as it is where my eating disorder started. I will fight with all i've got, i am hoping that if i can get through this period at home i will in the future be able to look forward to going home without having food worries. I am trying to think of things i can put in place to help me, but not sure what yet.....
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