Fighting

Ok the weekend was very good to me and as a matter of fact the majority of last week was as well, But today im starting to feel the depression coming back to me........ Its a faint feeling of what has been with me for a while now but im still holding on and fighting with myself for my right to be happy and have a fulfilling rest of my life.
Im 28 years old...Im not even close to the end of the tunnel. Today when i stepped out of the shower i put the towel over my face and looked up and said
" Just stay with me god,Please stay with me "
After i did that the morning felt better,I was able to look at my wife in a loving manner and gave her a loving kiss before i left this morning and she smiled at me afterwards and said "I love you" Ahh i hope i can get back on track with her because i cant lose her again. As bad as losing wrestling hurts it would quadrouple the hurt if she left me again. I know i wouldnt last long at all if this happened so im going to step up and take back everything that i have done to her and made her over the last few years....
Nikki....i love you...