Fickle is my middle name :)

Okay in my last journal I was debating a few things. Update on me and my fickleness he he  May 12th I am going to Ohio State Medical Center and meeting Dr. Grant Shimdt about starting IVF..... I know I know I said that I wanted to adopt but I just didnt feel like my husband was 100% with me.  I feel that in order to adopt he would have to feel just like I do and he just isnt there yet.  Sooooooo I want to have a baby nomatter how it gets here and if IVF works maybe Ill have two! lol  Plust I really want to be able to breast feed as well and that would be harder if we adopted. Okay so now Im not going back to school because *when* I have a baby I will become a stay at home mommy ( unless of corse I change my mind, which Im known to do now and then :) )  Sooooo I think thats most of the update.Uhhh well my lunch break is over and I dont have much more to say !