FET #3
Hope everyone is doing ok. We got back a few days ago from our fabulous vacation in Maine where DH and I decided not to mention or even think about IF. Of course, I did think of it a few times (how could I not!?) but overall it was good to be away. I saw my RE on Friday and again today, and am waiting to find out when FET #3 will be - looks like either tomorrow or Wednesday! I'm really freaked out about this one. I am sorta regretting that I didn't do the miscarriage panel bloodwork but chances are all is ok there and the tests wouldn't come back until after the FET anyway. I am feeling like postponing this FET, because it's our last shot and if this fails, game over, and I'm not sure I can really handle that. So I am thinking to postpone it, but I know I won't because why postpone the inevitable and if it happens to work, then I'll be thrilled of course!
So yesterday we had my nephew's baptism and DH and I are the Godparents. We are totally thrilled about this and it was a great day, but I couldn't help but tear up a few times during the day thinking how we might never get this experience. I'm feeling kinda down and like I might need to soon accept that we might not ever have kids of our own. I know there are many ways to have a family, and I support and encourage all of them, but for us being so "financially challenged" none of those options seem realistic. Plus, I still cannot wrap my mind around the idea that I possibly won't have a child that is part me, part DH. The sadness over this is just too overwhelming.
So yesterday we had my nephew's baptism and DH and I are the Godparents. We are totally thrilled about this and it was a great day, but I couldn't help but tear up a few times during the day thinking how we might never get this experience. I'm feeling kinda down and like I might need to soon accept that we might not ever have kids of our own. I know there are many ways to have a family, and I support and encourage all of them, but for us being so "financially challenged" none of those options seem realistic. Plus, I still cannot wrap my mind around the idea that I possibly won't have a child that is part me, part DH. The sadness over this is just too overwhelming.
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I\'m so glad you and your hubby were able to get away and really enjoy your time together. I realize IF is never really far from our thoughts, but those little breaks we get from time to time are much needed!
I will be praying that FET #3 is the charm!
((HUGS))
I\'m glad you had a good vacation in Maine where you and DH could recharge! Sounds like you have a great outlook for FET #3. I hope it all goes smoothly and you get your BFP!
I\'m so glad you had a nice get away! It\'s so hard to turn off the IF switch but sometimes a break is soooo rewarding. I totally get where you are coming from with wanting to postpone the FET and worrying you will never have a child. It\'s hard not to have those worries when all we ever get is bad news. But maybe third time is a charm and we\'ve seen fro our DS sisters that sometimes the only thing we have to hang onto is hope and persistence. Praying for you! Xoxo
So glad you had a nice vacation! Don\'t give up! Try to stay positive! I hope you get your BFP soon!!!
Oh I can\'t believe you have your transfert already. Time flies with FETs. I\'m sending you lots of positive vibes and will hope the 3rd times the charm.
I\'m sure they kept the best for last.
Give us an update when you know for sure.
I can understand not being sure if you should do it or wait. Trust yourself.
Hugs
I know the feeling of loss over the possibility of not having a child of your own. I titally get it. But try not to focus on that right now because you DO have some hope, you still have an FET. I pray it works for you.
Took me about 8 months of thinking about it before I could move forward with having children that were not biologically mine but everyones journeys and choices are different. Weve all got to do the best we can with the hand weve been dealt. Im happy for you that you have another shot! Wishing you tons of sticky baby dust and hoping this is it!
I\'m sorry you are feeling this way. The thought is scary but try not to go there unless it happens. I still have hope for you. Will they be changing the protocol with this FET? Are you on prednisone or another steroid? What about baby asprin?
I\'m glad you were able to have a nice weekend getaway.
Yay for vacations! Sorry about your anxiety with this FET. Hopefully, this one will be the one that works for you and all this worrying with have been for naught!
So glad you guys enjoyed your vacation! I can completely understand the anxiety over the FET. Hopefully, you\'ll be worried for no reason and this will be it for you!
Glad your vacation was fabulous, don\'t ya just love Maine! Most relaxing place to be! Best of luck with this next FET, hoping this is the one and that you won\'t have to even think about not having a child that is part of you.
Thinking of you. Good luck today :)