felt a bit rushed and anxious today, but am keeping strong. Gardening sunday :)

Happy saturday! :) peach iced tea CHEERS!!! :) taking it easy today, with some nature, tending our plants, and also got some items at the dollar store :) it's a nice sunny day. :) i'm having a peach iced tea, from dunkin donuts :) i got some stickers, and new pens, at the dollar store today :) i'm gearing up, for some nice writings :) i tended our plants this morning, they're continuing to flourish wonderfully :) i was a bit off-today, at the dollar store, felt a bit rushed, and uncomfortable, but am alright :) i'm gonna have a nice garden day tomorrow, along with some writings :) Thank you angel friends, for all of your wonderful well wishes :) my mom is feeling a bit better today :)
Hi angel friends :) my family and i hope everyone is doing well, and having a nice day :) Writing a shorter update today, as it's a fairly relaxing, peaceful day close to home :) my mom, dad, and i went to the dollar store earlier, and i also got a chance to go to the bank today, to withdraw some of my recent earnings :) i'm relaxing, with a nice iced tea, and i even put some dvds on :) i had a bit of a rough time at the dollar store today, felt rushed, and anxious in the store there. i'm ok though, and happy to be home, resting ,and have some new garden pictures to share :)
Thank you angel friends, for oyur wonderful well wishes, for my mom :) She's feeling a bit better today :) She's still awaiting the results, from her recent blood work test. She had a good breakfast, and enjoyed her tea :) She also is having some water :) we've been trying to get her to slow down a bit, as she sometimes is on the go al ot, and we want her to slow down, and take better care :) This morning, Jenn ,Mikey, and baby Hunter came over, and Alyssa and the triplets visited for a little while :) i shared with my family, all of your wonderful comments, on our baking friday journal, and pictures :) Thank you everyone, so very much :) We're very happy, and thrilled everyone enjoyed our baking friday adventure :) We had a great time, baking the pretzels, and making homemade pickles :) i made a cookie monster visit to the kitchen yesterday evening, to get a couple pretzels, and pickles, and also had a nice sandwich wrap too :) it was great :)
This morning, i put some nice goodies around our yard, for our nature animal friends :) they're very happy :) my dad put 2 more bird feeders, in the bird sanctuary in our yard, and also fixed 2 of our bird feeders :) we now have 6 bird feeders out back :) it's really nice :) i gave our plants a nice watering earlier today, i love to soak the plants with the water, and seeing how nicely the plants are growing, it's so nice :) the plants are growing wild, and i'm amazed, at how tall the sunflowers are growing, and also, the corn plants doing well :) i took some sweet new pictures of our plants :)
During the late morning, my dad drove me over to the bank, i made a withdrawal, for some of my recent earnings. my mom was getting ready to go shopping with us. when we got home, my mom was all ready, and i wasn't ready, i still had on my garden jeans. i felt a bit rushed, and tried to get ready to go to the dollar store. i thought i'd have a good 10 to 20 minutes to get ready, after going to the bank, but my mom was ready to go. Kayla watches Taylynn as she's old enough to stay home now, but my mom felt a bit anxious, about the kids being home without us here. they usually hangout in their room, watching videos, and playing music. my mom felt a bit rushed, and i could tell she wanted to get home early. i don't like when my mom feels rushed, as when she rushes, it's made her worried sick, about things, and i've been trying to get her to go slower paced, with things. i felt a bit rushed, having to get ready really quick, to go to the dollar store. rushing, makes me feel anxious, and unfocused. i understand, my mom wanting to come home quickly, but the kids are always usually fine, when Kayla watches Taylynn. Kayla's 14. i remember when i was 12, i was staying home on my own, my sister Lisa was home with me most of the time though then.
i did my best at the dollar store, but i felt unfocused, and began to feel uncomfortable in there. i did get a few items i wanted, including some stickers, and some new pens, for my writings, but i just felt very smoothered by the clock, and my anxiety was getting the best of me. at the checkout too, i felt very uncomfortable, and felt squished inbetween the aisles, and just wanted to be back home, as the shopping start, got off to a rough start. it wasn't the best experience. even on the snack aisle, a worker was working, and i didn't want to get in the way, i felt very shy, my dad was asking me about some snacks, but i just felt very uncomfortable in those moments. i felt very wound-up, and unfocused, felt like i was on edge, inside of the store. i didn't even get a basket there today. we finished up shopping, but i wasn't really happy about how i didn't do well, in the store, i just felt like shyness, and anxiety got the best of me, and i think it was stemming from earlier, having to rush, to get ready really quick, to go out the door, after getting home from the bank. we stopped by dunkin donuts drive-thru on the way home, and i got a peach iced tea. i just been hanging out this afternoon, here in my computer room, i just needed some "Me" time, to be relaxing, put some dvds on. :)
It's an ok day, but just wish the dollar store experience went a bit better. i talked with my mom and dad about it, and told them, i don't get to go out, every day, and just wanted to be relaxed, when going out to the store today. it's ok, but i just felt like we were on a time schedule, and that's very uncomfortable, and can bring on anxiety. i've been worried about my mom's condition too. anxiety, rushing, stress, that's what has contributed to her not feeling well, and i've talked with her, about how she must take better care, and not rush about things. i use too be like that, i was always, "rush rush rush", but it makes us physically sick after a while, so i just hope, my mom can take it easy a bit more, and can eat well, and relax more. i get frustrated, because she knows she needs to not rush, and today, her still having those urges to rush, i realize, she needs more time, to get into a routine, of not rushing like that. we had all afternoon, wide open, and there was no need to rush to the store. her so use too rush, is one of the reasons she's not been feeling 100%, she pushes herself, to rush, and gets stressed too easily over small things. i'm trying to work with my mom, guiding her, to not get so stressed about the small things.
i guess i been a little upset too, because my dad, he's been around during the days often, but hasn't asked me to show him the plants much this season too, and it upsets me. i put my heart, spirit, soul, my all into that garden, and tending the plants. i get tore up in the gardens, whether it's pulled muscles, or prickers tearing up my hands and arms, but i feel like, this season, i been going it alone, with the gardening. i wish my dad would ask me to go out with him to check the plants. it just hasn't seemed to interest him that much, this season. maybe he's having depression? i'm not sure, but it just feels odd. i planted the whole garden this year. usually my dad helps out, but hasn't.i garden, not for the amount of vegetables, fruits, or the amount of flowers, i garden, for my heart, i garden for my spirit, and i garden for my soul, and how it makes me feel :) it's no greater feeling of proudness, when i see those gardens, and plants rocking on a sunny day, i love it, and it really brings me joy, to be able to share it :) i'll talk with my mom, about maybe her talking with my dad, about asking me to check the plants. i get shy sometimes, even with family. i just feel, my dad isn't into the gardens this year. i'm whole heartedly into it, and i will continue to be. :) i know my dad has some busy days, and doesn't need to tend the plants, i do that, but it would be nice, if he wanted to talk or walk around our yard, to check our plants from time to time. i try to talk with him about the plants, but he doesn't seem to pay attention. i want my dad to be proud of the garden, especially since i have grown this garden this year, almost entirely from seed. Thank you for letting me write, and experiencing some things, it helps me to write, and always has. :) Holly and i are going to watch some cool videos on youtube tonight, and i'm gonna get a good night's rest :) i want to have a gardening day tomorrow :) There's many more great things to look forward too, with family, friends, and nature :)
-never lose hope :)
To Wildthing, Peaceful Gentle Moments of the day :) Wildthing, it's good to rest up, with an iced tea, and some dvds, and looking forward to some writings :) Thinking of you, our dear friend :)
my mom says hi :) She says, "thank you for your well wishes" :) She says, "i hope everyone had a good day" :) awww! :) We love you all very much, our sweet dear wonderful guardian angel friends :) We hope everyone is doing well, and having a peaceful day :)
Our gardens continue to grow, and flourish :) i tended our plants today :) it's nicely sunny :) i love bringing you all into the gardens with me, with my writings, and pictures :) i'm happy, and proud of how well the plants are doing :) i want to do some more gardening tomorrow, i want to take my time, pulling some weeds from the garden, and watering the plants :)i need a good gardening day :)
Our corn is growing a lot :)


pumpkin plant :)

cucumber :)

pears and apples :)
 


The Sunflowers love that summer sunshine :)

The plants doing very well, always makes me very happy :) i love gardening :)