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sites like this shouldn't exist because this feeling shouldn't exist. im happy that i found this site because no one can relate except for people that have gone through this. i just wish this wasn't what my life has become. i feel like im dying on the insides. i feel so confused, like why did this happen. i spent 5 years just trying to fix her. i was so desperate to have her back. and ill never get her back while on this earth. on fathers day we turned our life to Christ so i know ill see her when i die but i don't want to go another minute without her. i feel like all im doing is covering up my feelings because everyone expects me to. life is just not nthe same things that mattered don't really interest me as it once did. video games don't even help anymore and that was my outlet at one point. man this is so bad. im 30 and a widow. i was supposd to grow old with this woman,. we were supposed to buy a camper when we were older and go cross country with our grandkids in the summers. we were supposed to experience everything with eachother. i wanted to die with her. why did my baby girl have to leave me? it takes so much just to go on just to get up and force yourself drains so much of me. i want to give up and die. life just isn't life without her. a sunny day as i see now is just a waste to me because without her to look at it with me the sunshine is just dull. life is hard and unfair ive seen. it hits hard with no consideration on whter or not you live right or not.
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Dear Keenan,
I feel your pain and despair.
Today has started with the same emotions for me.
Let\'s hold on to God\'s promises together. \"Thou will keep thee in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee\". That scripture has brought me through so many trials and dark emotions, I hold on to it...........
I can only say, I allow myself to feel those disappointments, losses brokenness,
And every other feeling and let them pass like a huge wave going to shore.
Our Promise from The Lord is.....\"He will never leave us n\'or forsake us\"
I promise you dear Keenan those words are true. Please hold on to that , everything will be o.k. In the end.
In Christ\'s Love dear brother,
Sandra. Psalm 27:14
thank you for the kind words. im trying here. im really desperate here and just don\'t know what to do.
I am so sorry for your loss. We all understand here we are walking the same path. I to lost my sunshine. Hugs, Sandi
I am so very sorry for your loss. So young and so unfair!
We understand your heartbreak.
We are here to listen, to help and to support you.
This pain is so raw for you. It\'s going to take time, a lot of time.
You will grieve, which is normal.
You have to take care of yourself, so you\'re able to take care of your precious children.
Wishing you strength,
Janie