feelings for today

i feel so awful today, everything seems too be going wrong.
i was 14 weeks pregnant and had a miscarriage, and although i feel everything happens for a reason, i cant seem too find the reason for that.
how do i feel?
i feel like im fighting my way through each day, trying too stay strong, too take it all in my stride, trying too find a reason too live and it seems like everything is falling apart around me just as i build something good.
my hopes, dreams, ambitions. they mean nothing anymore. i mean nothing.
which is why i have too leave this world behind, i have too go. get away.
im truly sorry too everyone here at ds. ive made some amazing friends, friends that have been there for me when i needed someone too turn too, friends that have been there for me at my lowest.
theres too much going on inn my head and im gonna explode
so im sorry and goodbye!
dont cry for me!
i'll see you again someday
thats a promise!